I Needed my DAD( Dedicated Adorning Dad)

I want to be loved...
Long walks in the park,
Soft kisses on my cheeks,
The diamond ring in the velvet box,
A Family.

I want to wake up knowing I'm loved,
No worries of a dysfunctional relationship,
No emotional or mental abuse, No cheating either.

I've come to the realization that the knowledge to obtain this, my mother couldn't provide.
For mothers are nurturing,caring, loving and dotting.

I needed my DAD
Not a fly by nite random John,
But my DAD.
The one who hleped to concieve me.
My dad,
The one I resemble, the one who's traits I carry.

I needed the guidance,
I needed the truth..

I needed him to stand up for me-
To teach me right from wrong.
To help me understand that there are good men and some are bad.

I needed my dad,
Especially when guys started showing interest in me.
His words would've helped me..

His words would've consoled me when I encountered boys who were NOT quite yet men..
They would've helped me to avoid pitfalls that left me bruised.

Years have passed and they have not been fully wasted.
I still matured and grew
BUT my Dad's words would've been appreciated.

I'm NOT speaking from a place of hurt nor a place of hate,I'm speaking from a place of Understanding and Release...
Acknowledging that somethings happen beyond our control.

In this cylce we call life,
God allows the unexpected to happen to prepare us for better.
Better days are ahead,
But I have to want them
Better days are right over the horizon,
and I happily awaiting the Arising.

Life hasn't been easy without my dad,
But I survived.
I made more mistakes than a few, But I came thru.
Love isn't always easy to come by, isn't always real,
But dad you wouldn't believe,
its finally on my side,
This one is the deal...

God answered my prayers,
But its been hard,
I have issues with acceptance and holdnig everyone accountable for how things turned out with you.

I tend to push him away, but he stays right there and that dad is a true sign that he truly cares.

Nobody forewarned me how messed up I would be without a relationship with you,
and because of that the same issues have surfaced with my daughter.

However, steps are being made to change the atmosphereand provide a stable 2 parent home.


My life has transitioned,
From hurt to healing.
Tears have been shed, nights have been sleepless,
Days have been long
But God helped me thru.

Didn't understand why the familiar became so isolated and I had to leave,

But in order to want or get better the change has to manifest within...

Although I needed adad who exemplified strength and commitment to my upbringing,
Today, I live with knowing all I have witnesses
God did it just for ME!!

The piercings in his side were put there to eleviate what I would endure, to bring me to this day, this time where I'm learning to live surrendered and free!

Free to jump, run, sing and be ME~

So, to my dad who I wanted to be my friend,
I LOVE you
Thanks for helping to create me,
Thanks for the Love you gave from a distance..

What i lacked,
god provided
his love and Guidance stayed Strong,
and because of it
I can understand and see the greater that waiting just for ME!!!

I WAS her..Afraid...

I breathed to be excepted,
Wanted to know and understand what it meant to be loved unconditionally..

See, I was her..
Born to a teenage mother and father..
Born out of wedlock and my birth seemed to have caused more hurt than good...

I was her,
Never quite understood what it meant to have both parents because my home was broken..

I was her,
Did alot of stupid things to gain acceptance..

As I grew older, I learned that true exceptance comes from God..
I knew without a doubt that my Mother's love was unconditional...
She loved me thru my rights, wrongs, screw ups and successes...
She loved me when I went in the bathroom and cut my hair
And she supported me thru the loss of my 1st child...

But, that just didn't seem enough..
So, I became involved with a guy at a very young age..
And because we were young and both products of "Dysfunctional Families", in time we outgrew each other.. And that was okay

My growth,
Didnt come in the form of thinking I was better than anyone,
It came in the form of time to stand on my own and experience more than what Boston had to offer...

Ever felt like what you have growing inside your belly, or head is to big for some ppl in your circle to grasp?

Well, that was me..
I was ready to fly, ready to soar and take off...
But, I still had to hop before I could fly..

My wings took form in September of 2009...
My heart was ready, my soul was released and I knew my Ship had finally sailed in..
It's one thing to say I'm leaving, but its a pure satisfaction you achieve when you finally make the move..

I had to loose some things in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..
I had to shed some tears and cut some strings in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..
I had to say some hard goodbyes and leave some relationships unresolved in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..

I WAS her!!!
Afraid of what tomorrow and the unknown held until I had the strength and courage to spread my wings and FLY...

I hold no regrets, I hold no grudges, I hold no animosity...
I exuberate LOVE, PEACE and CHANGE..

I know what it is to dReam, and watch dReams become a reality..
I WAS her,
looking out of my own soul while others dictated my moves...

I WAS her,
Afraid to be me~

I now LOVE and APPRECIATE who and what I've become..
LIfe has its up and downs,
Surprises and Disappointments,
BUT WE control what we allow to affect and move us...

Today,
I'm moved my the love of GOD and just being me..
Because,
I WAS her~
Afraid...

In DEFENSE of my Attitude

I don't have to tolerare BS,
See, you think because I've dealt with you for so long,
This: Us,

Is all I aspire to have,

My attitude is defined by by
the inconsistencies and lies,

It's justified by your unwillingness to sacrafice and be true:
To thine OWN self..

You can't catergorize me with the others you've encountered and put me into a box..
I stand out, Made stronger than you could ever imagine,
And because of that,
YOU shall RESPECT me or deal with my attitude which is defined by my MATURING..

So, call it being an ANGRY black woman,
That I AM NOT;
Neither am I the other woman!!

I'm just a WOMAN,
who has no desire to feel small or unappreciated.

I'm a woman,
Learning to go after what and who I want by any means necessary.

I'm a woman,
Who at times, may carry traits that seem a bit extra to you,
But, to me:
I'm protecting my heart and soul.

I'm a flower in bloom,
With the potential to sit amongst some of the prettiest bouquets and still stand out..

So, in defense of this attitude that you may think I carry like a badge of honor,
And in defense of the words you may choose to describe me...

Remember,
I'm your Mother,
I'm your Sister,
I'm your niece and even best female friend...
I'm the woman who can sign your paycheck and in the same breath tell you,
Your services are no longer needed..

This is the attitude of women,
Who raise children alone,
Who put themselves thru college,
Who make ends meet,
Who even at times have to walk to job interviews in the rain only to be turned AWAY..

HMPH.....
This attitude is defended by...
Not being made to feel as #1,
But YET;
Still kept a smile on my face..
This attitude is defined by these famous lines,
"It's not you its me..Give me time and we'll make it work..
Wait, Watch and you'll see..
Oh please!!

I've learned and I'm still learning what it is to do and be ME~

See, to YOU I may NOT be the prettiest woman,
BUT, my attitude of striving and perserverance will take me far..

So, this image, blinded by perception of what YOU and OTHERS might see ME as:

Is NOTHING
If 1st,
You don't know me!!

Truth Is......

"In life, we will meet more people who are against us than for us.... So where does that leave you"


If you listen carefully, everyone has a remedy or solution for all of our problems...
Are their thoughts and words always the truth? I'm learning, in life we will always encounter someone who feels they are better.

Truth is, to some extinct we are better than our counterparts( my own theory)reason being, we each have own own spin or ideas shall I say. We may not come up with them the same way, but if we were to perform the jog whole heartedly, it will yield awesome results...

Truth is, I LOVE to write... Some days I write phenemonal pieces, some days from the heart, some days others can relate and some days a piece I just needed to get off my chest. There are so many other writers in the world. Do I knock what they do? NEVER!! What makes each of us unique, is that we each obtain a "SWAG", "STYLE" and "CHARACTER" that fits our personality. I would be 100 percent wrong to judge another person's piece bc I didnt have the idea 1st...

I said that to say.. We all are blessed with talents. God gives each of us something that He knows we could excel at. I'm a wonderful Teacher and Youth Director... Would I try and challenge someone who has ran a Center for umpteen years? Probably not, but would I challenge someone directly in my field? Yes, if it were to yield results that would enhance the work that we do.

Truth is, we all need to realize our places and positions and work within those realms.
I had a conversation with a person who has no children. She seemed to know everything and for the most part, alot of what she said made great sense. However, when it came to the simple tasks like purchasing diapers, doing homework, packing lunch and getting a child ready for school early in the am, she had no clue. We have to pick and choose our battles. Some we will lose and trust me, some we will win..

We will only obtain those victories when we allow the truth to resignate and shine thru in our work...

There are somethings I can do better and there are somethings you can too..
Who are we to challenge who and what you know??

Truth is.... I'm hlad only God can judge me because people will surely crucify us!!

Glad to be me, I can't live as or be anyone else, other than who God ordained me to be!!

Gotta Leave, Gotta Let Go..

Sometimes in life, we make decisions in such a haste that it causes a lifetime of hurt. It leaves us to wonder was that the best choice and can I live with this forever...
As time progress, the pain subsides but the thoughts of that person or object still remain...

Sometimes we, Gotta Leave, Gotta Let Go

The pain is there and its surreal...
I can no longer feel, be touched or loved by you...
Its taking a toll on my thoughts and blocking my heart,
I cant keep living in the Past,
I Gotta Leave, I Gotta Let Go.

I Thought we could be friends and have a sense of Cordial"NESS"
But it only causes more pain....
Just when you think you've let go, and you're ready to move on,
Here comes a memory, a Scent or a hearty laugh: a reminder of what once was and can no longer Be
I'm READY for Love,
To be engulfed in a New Happiness:
But my feet are heavy
But I know.. I Gotta Leave, I Gotta Let go..
My heart smiles each day as an old layer is removed and a new one forms...
I'm reminded what it is to be a BEAUTIFUL woman and I know this I can do..
I can move on and began the next chapter in my life
I have a LOVE for all things and they start and end with ME...
Starting a family, starting over and properly loving God because thru him I can love ME.
A second chance at love has arrived and the door of possibilities are wide open...
I look down and tell my feet MOVE,
I look at the mirror and glance at the woman looking at me: ME and I say let's GO
I open my mouth and I breathe in the new scent and the new world of Life that waits me
I look to Heaven and I ask God is this real?

I see the sky brighten, the sun shining and I know its truly my time Right NOW, At this moment
To Leave and Let Go!!

The Exploration of HIS Body

PERFECTION

Freshly cut and shaven
Beautiful captivating smile
I'm looking at him slightly baffled
Is this man mine for the taking?

I slowly remove his shirt to look at his bare chest
My goodness, my gosh, all I could've ever guessed

2 firm man breast, just right for me to lick
Truly a man's body
Incomparable to none

Shoulders nice and broad, just right to carry and lift me
Arms strong with muscle, pure definition of masculinity.

I'm rubbing and touching
Thus far liking what I feel
I look him up and down and proceed with a slight spin.

I'm glancing at his backside, with the urgency to expose his "thing"

I plant small butterfly kisses right in the middle of his back..
Haines undies sitting at his waist
But the lady in me is rising, feeling extremely hot
I'm to the point where I'm anticipating his taste.

A taste of his lips
A taste of his sweat
A taste of his love
Absolutely loving his physique!

My hands rest at his side, as I proceed to tug at his undies with my teeth.

He looks at me and smile with a slyish grin as if to say,
" You ready for all of me"?

The boxers drop
As does my bottom lip
This man has been endowed
Can I say blessed
I have no other choice but to call him my sweet caramel dip

My mind is racing
My heart is throbbing
I've enjoyed every bit of exploring his body

Truthfully speaking
The urgency is there
His body is what I desire
The thoughts to have all of him exceeds all of my wildest dreams

I'm going to take it all in slow
Enjoying what is before me
This guy is truly mine
Exploring is just the beginning
As I fix my tongue and lips..
Its time to taste

Confidence

Confidence...
An illusion of me,
Walking with my head held high,
Thoughts of Victory, NEVER defeat.

Confidence....
An image of beauty,
A smart woman, Sophisticated in EVERY since of the word,
A LOVER, A MOTHER, A MOTIVATOR, A SUPPORTER..

Confidence....
Strong enough to know enough is enough, Wise enough to know Wisdom comes with age,
YET..Patient enough to know the BEST comes to those who WAIT..

Confidence....
Tomorrow is NOT guaranteed, BUT because GOD loves me, And he has a purpose for my life. I RISE daily!

Confidence...
I'm beautiful, inside and out, I make positive decisions, I make wrong decisions, I live with them and strive for better!

Confidence....
Accepting and believing change is Good,
Letting go of the OLD and welcoming the NEW..
Scared of the unknown, YET questioning the present..

CON.FI..DENCE....
I walk it,
i talk it,
I look it,
I feel it,
I breath it...
I strive for it..

For Confidence, and NOTHING LESS~

Love Beyond Measure

What is this thing we call Love?

Allows us to feel what has NEVEr been felt,

And to Say what we NEVER thought we could say?



It allows us to Believe in what has NEVER been dreamt

And live out our true Destiny.





What is Love?

It is a husband who faithfully sits by his wife's side as her memory fades away,

It is a wife who tells her husband, cane and All: You're Still the ONLY man for me( just can't ride on a Hoove around)



It is a Man who loves unconditionally

And a Woman who loves without conditions...



What is Love?

It is a Woman Who realizes her man comes with 2 or 3 little packages

And he Loves and accepts her package of 1 As well

AND

Together, they combine their packages to live and Be as 1



It is a boyfriend who is ready to walk down the isle

And a girlfriend who realizes its the size of his HEART and NOT the diamond



What is Love?

It is an emotion that sings an undying song to 2 hearts.

It mends,

Heals,

and turns tears into smiles.. Pain into Joy

It replaces that old-old with the New-New!!



Love,

Better to have given than just received

Better to have loved than NOT at all.



God is the ultimate love,

Because he loved us, He Blew into the dirt and formed man.

And in doing so, he provided the gift Woman



What is Love?

It allows us to say

til death do us part as long as you don't break my heart.



Love,

A passion that cannot die,

Intertwined 2 hearts to beat as 1!



Love is you,

Love is me,

Love on me as I love on you!



Love is Love and It's Beyond Measure

Time Waits for NO 1

Oppressed thoughts,
Oppressed Actions,
STAGNATION,

Feet glued to the ground....
Not moving.

Always waiting for the right time BUT it never arrives
Holding out hope, Until desperation sets in..
Time Waits for No 1...


Needing to understand what is right,
Accepting what is and has been wrong.
Pointing the finger when SELF, is to Blame..
Self is to blame...

Time, it does NOT stand still and it does NOT wait...

Trying to convince your thoughts that your moment is here,
YET
No motivation or power within yourself to pursue it

And YET
the clock ticks
The hours become minutes, the minutes become seconds and it GONE....

Becoming a fugitive to your your own Destiny,
Rejection
Ridicule
Involuntary Deatrh of LIFE... Your life

Looking towards tomorrow,
Yet eyes are wide shut,
Time has moved on, Gone to the Next...

Time...
It tried to befriend you-
Tried to hold on-

While experiences of yesteryear still lingered on...
Lacked the courage to accept and change,
Stood Still, while others progressed

Reality has set, Time made its mark,
Moved on, No longer able to wait for No 1...

Time, wasn't able to wait...
It has moved on!

~The Realness of Love~

She is sitting there isolated,
In her own own world, totally dispondant...

Missing his touch, his smile....
The warm embrace that captured her heart.
A minute in time she would give-
Just to be held by him right now at this moment...

Laughter filled both hearts with feelings of overwhelming warmth, YET:

The moment they said goodbye, Reality hit.
She headed back to her world and He his,
It was a temporary fix for a lifetime they are building.

She sits, QUIET:
Looking out the window,
Hoping,
Believing and...
Anticipating
Him, walking around the corner.

BUT, as of right now, there are NO signs of him.
She dozes, closes her eyes and sees what seems to be his strong arms.
She runs toward him, full speed ahead.
It seems to be an eternity But, she arrives, SAFE:

She jumps into his arms and a long kiss is shared.
He reminds her how beautiful she is with a soft touch, No Words:

She stares into his eyes- hers saying to him Never leave...
They whisper sweet nothings, Because
At this moment it is what they NEED.
Ahhhh, the Realness of Real Love...

I love you baby- I'd love you to rock with me.
I will as long as you stay by my side and never leave...
She opens her eyes, looks closely with a slight slint towards the door and HE walks in...

The moment they have been living for is here....
The moments Realness meets Real Love...

The Raine~

She said she is RAIN,
she falls hard and steady-
But can also( just) mist the air with her presence AND in my case mess up my hair!

She is the kind of rain that does unsuspecting damage.
She never understood WHY people take cover from her,
And YET, she's left ALONE~

She bares the harsh cold statement and words others use to describe her Destructive"NESS"
"I lost my beach house"
"My car flooded"
"My basement is a pool"
"My house floated away"
" I..HATE..RAIN.."

Not looking for love, because it seeped through the cracks on more than one occasion.
Just looking for acceptance as GOD has already proved-

When she swept through and broke the levees of New Orleans, it was not done purposely...
She did not want to take all those lives But
Hers had been taken and misused so many times..
So, she took what others have taken from her at such a young age..
In return, all she's ever wanted was someone to care about HERS~......

When she falls from the sky
~Plants are fed
~Lawns are watered
~Droughts no longer so,
~Souls grow
~Children jump in her puddles

BUT..What...About..HER?

SHE is RAINE....
A beautiful girl,
Given the raw stick in life.

She is RAINE....
In search of someone to Love her, hold her and care for her,
Someone to bring her in-

She is RAINE....
The story of so many young girls left out to dry..
Left to survive on the streets of America...

She is RAINE...
Hear her voice,
Love Her,
Support her,
It could change her life and Yours...

She is RAINE...

" A personal experience, shaped this piece... Growing up, I didn't realize how fortunate I was until I met Raine..."

Smiling~

My smile is contagious..I smile when I'm down, Happy, low and sad..

Have you ever wondered why people can walk around with a frown? What in their life could be so bad that won't allow them to smile? There were points in my life when I didn't smile freely, but I knew how to display something FAKE... I've learned that in order to really appreciate a real true smile it has to come from within...

Your soul is the truest expression of you as a person...And when you learn how to love on self 1st, you can smile and love on others equally!

Today, my smile represents me!! My smile reaches to the bottom of my soul, finds my good place and it displays across my face..
In my smile you can see Confidence, you can see my Grace.
I want my feelings and I want my Smile to bounce off me and onto others~

Smile, it makes you feel better
Smile, it makes you seem approachable
Smile, Love is Love~

The Strength and Beauty of A Man

He walks with strength and courage as a lion over the jungle,
Strong, Straight back- a loud raor from the pit of his belly to warn off all unsuspecting prey.
A Protector, A Lover, Passionate Kisser, No mess taker.
He provides for his family,
But yet soft enough for the woman who equally compliments him.
The epitomes of a real man.
His strength, Presence and willingness to become better, inspires his counterpart to Love on him and All of him harder
She will provide comfort that will satisfy every part of him, from a place where only he has a key.
His back is strong enough to Carry any load, yet comforting enough- so that his woman feels safe to rest her head upon it!
The Strength and Beauty of A Real Man
Will always allow him to be true to God, himself and His Love.
No room for cowardice because everything he feels is expressed through his actions!
The qualities he posses stand out- his walk, his voice, his Ego are all what makes him Beautiful.
Strong enough to take a stand
While strong enough to shed a tear and allow his woman to dry his eyes.
He's accountable for his actions,
Yet in every sense of the word, his family can depoend on him.
His wife will Love him,
His daughters will adore him,
His sons will aspire to be replicas of dad.
Saluting the man- Who is strong
Acknowledging him for who he is,
Proudly and with honor,
I will bow under submission to The strength and Beauty of A Real Man

What a difference; A day in the life a Woman

I woke up, with the anticipation of getting to church on my heart. I attend a wonderful church here in Atlanta, and I know God directed my steps there purposely( The dReam Center Church of Atlanta, Pastors William and Danielle Murphy).. I'm not as close to my Pastors as I would like to be, but their Spirit, Love and Zeal is what draws me. They are passionate about helping others walk and manifest in their "dReams" and I get and understand that now.

June 14th, we started on our Daniel Fast at church. We are fasting to to promote a healthier lifestyle, a Deeper walk with Christ and for the Success of our Full Gospel Conference. I went into this Fast strong and with alot of confidence, who knew the blows I was going to take along the way.

Each time I prayed, it was like I was unloading alot on God, but in actuality I wasn't unloading I was Releasing.. Sometimes, though it may seem hard we have to learn to just release things. We have the misconception that everything presented to us is good, when sometimes its not. I released unto God my fears, and while doing so he filled me with more Confidence in Him. Not only did I have to release myself and condition my thinking, some people places and things had to release me.. In the midst of hurt, our truest Praise and deeper understanding takes fold. Every experience is not a bad one, but it does pave the way for Better!

Along with Releasing, we also have to refocus. We think we know and understand it all, but along the way we lose vital pieces of life. Refocusing is not a bad thing, it just helps you to get back to whats important. I HAVE to refocus on my Relationship with God, and if I do that all the other focus in various" Relationships" he will help me. I'm learning that I tend to try and help God out and he doesn't need my help. He's all knowing and his plans are far more greater than what I could even imagine. As we become accustomed to have something, we have to always remember if its not dedicated and permanent it an and will be removed.

Once you are able to Refocus, you will be at a place where you can Rethink some decisions you've made along the way. While all decisions are NOT bad ones, there are some that we could've put more thought and care into. I'm realizing that GOD has to stay centerfold in every decision I make along the way. He hasn't bought me this far to fail, nor to be a fool. To actually sit and rethink is a good place to be. It is during those times you can measure your growth and compare notes you've taken. I'm looking at it this way, doors and opportunities that have been closed are stepping stones for new ones to open. The bad ones were there for a reason, to Set us up and position us for the Best, that's definitely on its way.

Above all, I've repented. And to repent isn't always a bad thing. I'm quick to ask God to forgive me for the wrong I've said, for the bad thoughts too..But, can I honestly say I've asked God to forgive me during those times I didn't truly trust in him? Have I fully repented for the times I allowed the wrong things to enter into my body( which is the temple)? And those wrong things can consist of being in the wrong atmosphere, eating and drinking things that are not healthy, letting people speak bad into your life and accepting it?

It's definitely hard being a woman... Especially a Christian Woman. I'm at a place where I only want to depend on God. Man has failed me enough. I'm learning God has the final say in everything and when my faith is full and I'm fasted and prayed up in him, He's going to allow me to walk, live and be free in him. All blessings come from him. I'm finally arriving to that place where its okay to just be Neka!

In so many words where our heart, love and life is concerned..It's just down right CRAZY..
We get to the point where we've experienced enough hurts and pains that we just want to turn cold, We want to be free, but the restraints of pleasing others and living up to their expectations has somewhat made you lose sense of you...
I'm no longer there..

My Fast came just in time for this phase of my life. I'm also reading The Super Natural Power of a Transformed Mind, and everything up to this point in my life has been super natural..I relocated, started a few new projects and finally finished composing my journal( keep me in prayer, searching for a publisher isn't easy)...I'm surely thinking on the lines of transformed... Had a couple of boulders thrown at me, BUT by the Grace of God I ducked before they knocked my head off..

July 4th will conclude our Daniel Fast. I didn't do this fast to be seen or for show, I did it because I'm ready to go to that next level. The world will celebrate July 4th as their Independence Day.. So will I!
I will celebrate my Indepedence in God!! I'm Free to live, Clap my hands and worship him!! I'm Celebrating because through every heartache and pain, It's okay, through every disappointment there comes that assurance that something better is over the Horizon!

What a difference it makes to be a woman finally being so hidden in God that it takes another Hidden person to find my spirit!!

A Day in the Life of a Woman, Loving It!

The gReatest moments

We all have various moments where we feel, Ah, this is it.. There is no other feeling greater than what I'm feeling now..
Marriage, birth of a child, career change, graduation: we all have various greatest moments...
I have many greatest moments: and trust me the birth of my daughter is right at the top,but as I sit and look back over my life, my gReatest moment came the day I decided..God, you may take everything, every handbag, every piece of tiffany jewelry, my car, my apartment..EVERYTHING..But if I can wake up tomorrow stress FREE with no drama living for you..I'll do it.

Greatest moments are not defined based on how we come out, they are defined by our mindset upon going into "battle". I have a bad habit of thinking about thinking.. And well after I've done the thinking process, I still speak without thinking..LOL..
I said that to say, even with full preparation and thoughts, sometimes we have to expect the unexpected.
We have to expect to get hurt to fully appreciate LOVE.
We have to expect to be lied on to appreciate when the truth is revealed and we shock them.
We have to expect a few disappointents to appreciate the reward.

People, sucess, money,our images...They will NOT define our gReatest moments, wewill.
Always be ina position where the next person can say",He/She did so can I"..

There is NOTHING unattainable, it just takes a willing heart..
There is NOTHING unachieveable, it just takes a willing mind..
There is NOTHING unacceptable, it just takes a willing soul to find the BEST!!!

Today, vow to find yourself in a place where the sky is truly your limit..Looking to the stars because in you, I see gReatNESS!!
BeEncouraged, Be Inspired!!

Didn't ASK to be here!

I grew up in a household with 3 brothers ,and as much as my mother tried to shield them and keep them from getting into the streets,it happened anyway.

Now, all 3 of my brothers are grown with boys of their own. And, the reality of it is, because of some of the bad choices they made growing up, my nephews had to take a few hits.. This isn't a note to blame anyone, its more so of a wake up call... I follow the news back home( Boston) just because I have a number of friends and former colleagues who work the mean streets..I want society to wake up. We need to stop kiling each other, throwing out hard sentences when in actuality, some people are in search of love!

The message is clear,, until we mend broken families and treat each other with respect, the Black Race will continually lack strong black men.

Alot of these men who are suffering...
"Didn't ASK to be HERE"

I was born into a world that had already condemned me..
Born to a woma( excuse me GIRL) who was already catergorized as
Single,
Black,
Uneducated,
and Lazy...

I didn't ask for my father NOT to care..
I didn't ask for these Jordans and neglect the fact I was failing in school.
I didn't ask to go to Disney World when we were about to be put out of our home.
I didn't ask for the nintendo 64 when, all I wanted was my Father and to be loved by HIM..
Knowing him could've and most likely would've made the difference..
But, since it was only YOU and you worked alot.. I had to become a latchkey kid and learn surival on my own.
I didn't ask to repeat 5th grade,I didn't ask to be home alone,
I didn't ask to be introduced to gangs, guns or drugs all by 10!
I surely didn't ask to be a father by 16 and repeat the cycle.

It's hard watching my brothers( men who I know have been hit by the judicial sysyem), Its hard knowing they didn't ask for the cards they were dealt.
...

I'm NOT giving UP~ going to keep on striving and moving ahead.. Taking my message of understanding of Peace and sharing it with everyone...
Hoping, someone will listen, someone will care..
Care enough to save me from the streets because it has become my mechanism of Survival..

There's a change coming, and I so ant to be apart of it.. I'm understanding now its going to happen with or without ME~
I didn't ask to be here,
Didn't Ask to be alive,
But since I am,
Can someone give me a positive male who cares and will help me stay on track?
Because I Didn't ask to be HERE~

My hope and prayer is for EVERYONE to wake up.We have to stop pointing fingers and just take charge.. We have to want better in orderto produce better!

Be Encouraged,
Be Inspired!

The best therapy is to LAUGH...

" I almost laughed at her, nope PUNCHED her"...I keep trying to not let her get the best of me but she goes up my body and down the other side, leaving every hair standing up..."MONICA" I exclaimed! What Goddy, she answered? I tell ya, conversations with my 16 year old god-daughter are a bit much, I have an instant headache upon hanging up with her... But its funny, some of the same issues she's facing as a teenager, as a grown woman I encounter them too,only difference I've learned people will ONLY do what We allow them to do!

It's funny how we let people get the best of us. And most of the time, they trigger our nerves because they know what buttons to push. I'm reminded of an incident in my own life where it really took some soul searching for me to calm down and realize, there are some people in the world who will do things to us just to be spiteful. There own insecurities and jealousies will allow them to pick at you because of the confidence you elude in whatever area it is they are bothering you.It's up to us to realize their motives and either learn to ignore them or continue to give them the upper hand.

I'm learning that the energy I put off, will be the same energy I get.. We are like magnets.. We connect people who are like us..If we lay with dogs we certainly rise with fies, but if we lay with stars, we take off too( if your mindset is there).

We cannot allow each and every person, place or thing to take us off our path. We cannot allow our selves to be subjected to things we cannot benefit and grow from. Our mission should be to keep reaching and aiming for stars. I don't want to walk in anyone else's shoes because my foot print is unique in its own way and I plan to leave my own mark on the world! But, I can reach and aim for stars because each star has its own unique twinkle, patiently waiting for me to make it shine!

Today, I challenge each of you to whole heartedly laugh AT THE NEXT PERSON WHO STEPS INSIDE YOUR WORLD AND TRIES TO CAUSE HAVOC!!! Laugh until they think you are crazy, so crazy that they in turn check themself!!

I do NOT want to be known as the person who explodes everytime someone tries me, I don't want to be looked upon as a woman who cannot control her feelings and one who is filled with insecurities.
I'm a strong woman, who knows what I want and what it takes to get there and if it takes laughing in the face of adversity everytime, well let the laugh off begin!!!

Be Encouraged, Be Inspired!!

Who are YOU that I must Prove my Name, You just testify of my Goodness!

Yesterday started off like any other day. I woke up, pRayed, showered and proceeded to prepare for my day! I got mini up, dressed her and we left. She was picked up and I proceeded on to work with no feelings of confusion or anything. I had just had a very relaxing weekend, with some much needed rest so I was "Good" as some would say. I think if i had any funny feelings, it would have prepared me for what I was about to see.

I walked into work and was given the new summer hours and schedule for my facility- I ALMOST swore! I had been cut 5 hours! Are you serious?I felt that aggressive Northern edge about to take flight, and that chick CHENEKA was about to surface, But I thought about it. Not only did GOD allow me to relocate from Massachusetts with my daughter and fully furnish a 2 bedroom apartment home with EVERYTHING brand new and PAID for, and live off my savings and part-time work from home for 6 months... I'm serving a GOD that's higher than MAN!! I'm serving a God that, not matter at the end of the day he truly has me, he has not forgotten about me and never had any intentions on forgetting. He didn't order my steps and remove me from the familiar and place me in a place to fail.

More than anything I was hurt. Any and everything I do, I do it with passion and full pledged commitment. Anything that I'm passionate about, I give my all. Working with youth, teaching, showing them right from wrong and giving back is my ultimate Goal in life. I've worked in this area of true compassion for over 17 years of my life.
I worked my 3 hours, shared a few worked with my director and left the building. Funny thing about me, when I'm feeling overwhelmed and like my back is against the wall, I bReak and cry. BUT NOT TODAY! God would NOT let me. I took care of my business! Not understanding WHY, but God has strategically placed me on EVERY path since my transformation and relocation to Atlanta began. He has placed certain people in my life for a reason- and he let that reason be made manifest unto me on yesterday.
Today, I challenge each of you to conquer a tough situation and testify of God's grace and goodness during the process. Watch, he'll do the miraculous. I'm looking at my situation with eyes wide open because I know my King's next move is going to blow my mind and all the pawns in the court!
I'm NOT suffering nor will my mini and I go without! My same life style will continue and everything I've touched and claimed for us will happen!! I'm a King's kid and at my worst, You will still get my BEST!!
Be Encouraged, Be Inspired!
( side note, if you notice the R is capitalized in some words, please read the Book of Isaiah chapter 58, verse 12 for clarity and understanding)

Can't Stop Me, Can't Break Me!!

... I looked at her and rolled my eyes.. Hmmm, this chick has got to be crazy thinking that's going to kill me or block what I've been ordained to do!! I looked at her and said, " Is that your best shot"??

Have you ever placed yourself in the shoes of David as he battled up against Goliath? There have been plenty of days where because people don't understand me and WHHO I really am, they misjudge me!!!

I've finally come to the realization that, its not me per say, its the confidence I elude.. It's the determination I have in my eyes and the unstoppable FEAR of Success in my HEART...

I'm not looking to be successful and claim it for me and mines, BUT I want to help and give back to others...So many times, our missions and dReams are lost because we are going down the wrong road..I'm constantly reminded of this woman I know. I met her thru a social networking site. We became really close friends and prayer partners from time to time..

Every once in a while, she'd call me and have meltdowns and we would pray about it, talk situations over and keep it moving. Things had even got the the point where she was just plain tired! But, she never once said, "God has forgotten about me"..

She is now a very successful children's party planner! I said that to say, we sometimes have to get in the mindset that no mater what is thrown at us, We won't stopand we cannot and will not BREAK..

The worst part about a dReam, is waking up to realize you have not made any attempts to make it into a reality! However, dReams are dreamt to become a reality.. There have been times where I've started to question my passion and what i'm doing, but its in that moment I'm reminded, the longer you work for ME, allowing ME to lead and guide you, I will keep you right in MY perfect will!!

Today, i'm going hard because that's all I know to do..
I go hard because I'm learning that my voice is the voice of so many women in the world. Alot of us are looking for that push, that comforting word and to hear, "I Support you". The reality of it is, some of us will never hear it. We have to make up in our mind that, no matter what, we will go after our dReam!!

Don't let the baggage of the world break your back. Knock that mess off and say...
" Can't Stop Me, Can't Break me..I'm a Jesus Serving Bad girl...Pop your collar, let'em know..The Best is Yet to come!

Be Encouraged, Be Inspired!

Seeing me for who I am, Loving You for being You!

" Dang, he's not the cutest person, but girl he makes me look good"... I walked away puzzled...
Dear God, thnx for making me the way I Am!
Thank-you for making me strong!
You've given me confidence and no matter how good or bad I look in other's eyes, to ME I feel like a thousandaire! Amen

We cannot change the next person. No matter how we think we can dress them up, add to their vocabulary or even help them get a better job, it will NOT make us look better.

We have to find the love within ourselves in order to see the other person for who they are.. Love ourselves for our flaws and become so buried and consumed with making ourself better that, whom ever we decide to bring into our circle will exemplify a part of us and our confidence!

There will be people placed within our reach to YES help them reach higher but our presence alone cannot and will NOT make the difference.. As time progress, we all need to come to the realization that there is a GOD! And what we seek in others only come thru God!

I'm only as loving and beautiful as the people who make up my circle... I know how to Love because someone LOVED me! My hero loved me and cared so much that even in my weakest moment he never let me fall! We encounter signs every day, but if our eyes are not open and our hearts are not in the place to receive we will miss it everytime!!

Be Encouraged, Be Inspired

The Realness of Reality

" Everyday, Reality sets in.. This is MY( your) life. In order to be Happy we have to do what brings US happiness.. Holding on to events of yesteryear that are full of misunderstandings, hurt and pain only re-opens old wounds..

Live and walk in today.. Reality is Real life and Real life is no joke.. Take what doesn't matter as a grain of salt and you will go far! We hear phrases like" Real recognizes Real", but have you ever stopped to think about what is Real?

Real"ness" we cannot fully recognize it in others if it does not exist within ourselves.. We have to first be real with ourselves in our own world to even know what to look for in others! Realness starts when you know how to be honest with yourself, when you do that it will allow you to be honest with others!

Real"ness" with one's self, will allow you to upfront and NOT front... Who likes to be around a person who is not secure and confident in who they are?

Real"ness" with one's self, will allow you to see your own flaws and allow you to perfect the person you aspire to be..

Real"ness" with one's self, will allow you to be upfront in all you do.. It will allow you to LOVE and give unto others as you'd like them to do unto you..

Real"ness" with one's self will allow you to remember your true blue friends when your status in life change? Wouldn't it just be ugly to forget the ones who would split 5 dollars with you, now that you have 100 dollars?

Real"ness" with one's self will allow you to LOVE through the hurt and the pain... Keep your heart open and it will surely find it's way to you and it will be REAL...

Real"ness" with one's self, will allow you to keep quiet when something is NOT your business... Once we're over the age of 25, who really wants to be involved in he said she said?

Real"ness" with one's self, will allow you to keep it real with others at all cost..Can't expect something YOU'RE giving!

Today, let Real flow from you and when you do just that Real will meet you in return!!

The Realness of Reality is: Keep it Real with you and others will follow suit!!

No matter what Love on God and keep Him number 1 and the Love he pours into your heart will spill over into the ones who make up your circle!

Life's lessons are Real,
Life's lessons are true,
Life's lessons are tools that will get us through!

Be Encouraged,
Be Inspired!

...My Business is Mines Alone..Mind Yours!

"It's HARD to tell others to mind their own when you are Not minding yours! Today, my gift is to Mind my Business....When I can pass on the Piece for that then I have done my job for the Day!!!!"

There is Nothing hard about sitting down talking with your true girlfriends, BUT the issue is when we cannot keep the information shared between ourselves. I'm not one to have alot of female friends BUT for the few I have I do cherish them. I trust that what I share with them stays between us. BUT, when that information is EXPOSED, you don't know what to do..You feel hurt and you began to question Is your Business really yours?

The issue isn't the person, its about us realizing that we need to keep what we feel as personal to ourself!! We have to decide that if its important we keep it within.. Everyone is NOT our friend and everyone does not care. We will meet people who will go to bat for us while we will meet others who will act concerned but they aren't.

As, we grow older we learn that....
Our Relationship with God "Personal"
Our Relationship with our Man "Personal"
Our Relationship with our Family "Personal"
What we deem as important we have to learn to keep it as such..

There will be people in our life who will benefit us in So many ways and there will be some who will drain us... We have to learn who and what is important and that will make us Better...

Today,What's important is learning to keep what's important to me...
Today, I'm understanding what's important and what's not...
Today, I'm learning that I have to keep What's important to me as such...
Today, I'm learning that God is the only one that can and will judge me...
Today, I'm understanding My Business is Mines!

My dReams will not be accepted by everyone, Everyone will not understand my walk nor my talk.. Everyone will Not understand my path..
I'm NOT asking anyone to understand it..I
I'm just asking... Let My business be mines and Yours be Yours!!

Be Inspired, Be Encouraged!!

The Power of Moving Forward...

The Power of Moving Forward...
Please be advised, this IS NOT my personal story.. This is the story of so many people I've come in contact with..I'm compelled to shre it and if you feel the need to share it with someone please do..We ALL need to move forward. There is so much over each horizon awaiting us)a

It seems that for every step in the right direction I make, there is always something or someone calling me into my past..
I left drugs and I'm NO longer selling or using them,
I'm no longer robbing people sitting behind these walls looking out,
I'm no longer selling my body,
No longer stealing,
No longer lying,
No longer hurting my family members...
But, it seems that no matter what I do, MY Past is trying to over take me. It's trying to resurface and its trying to make me WEAK!!! WHY???

I'm not giving up,
I know there's something better out there for me!
I know I can live right and I know that in time if I continue on this road,
My life is going to change..

The Power to Move forward starts within ME...
The Power to Claim what I want, are words that I have to speak out of my Mouth...
The Power to resist all urges, is within ME!!!

I know what it is to desire something so strong because I Was on Drugs...
But that Power to kick it was always within me...
I know what it felt like to want better BUT nobody wanted to give me a chance,
But the Power was within me...
I know what it is to want to hear the words, I Love You
BUT, I first had to love myself and learn to look past other people's garbage that they were insisting was MINE!!
I know what what it feels like Love unconditionally ang give unconditionally to only be slapped in the face...

BUT, Oh the Power in Moving Forward....
I'm moving forward because there is BETTER out here for me...
I'm moving forward because each test and obstacle is setting me up for GREATNESS...
I'm moving forward because each opportunity becomes better!!
I'm moving Forward because Greater is HE that is in ME than HE who is in the World!!

Once you make it up in your mind to MOVE, all of the doors that we're blocked become opened..All the people who were NOT willing to help become sweeter..All things negative in your life are now looked at as lessons learned!! Position yourself to move, it is Time!

The Path that is for me and the Path that is for you are NOT the Same...
But the Message is Clear...
There is POWER in Moving Forward..Take off and MOVE!!!!

Be Inspired, Be Encouraged!

The Reality Is..you HAVe to Believe and TRUST GOD...

" This is your captain..Buckle up"!!! I jumped up and looked around.. I could've sworn I was laying in bed and sure as heck I was.. I looked around and said that was weird. I attempted to lay back down, then I heard.." Are you going to Trust me, or keep trying to out smart me"?? ...We're only as strong as the defining moments where we realize there is something better over EVERY horizon... It's NOT the matter of meeting people just like US, BUT the ones who help Us realize that at this moment and particular time WE are right where We're supposed to be..

And I will make the dark places light, the ones who despise you, I will remove and the ones for you will understand, be there and never leave..

I was starting to have doubts. i knew I was moved out from under "comfort" to be placed into my season of total dependence on God.. I just didn't know HOW hard it was going to be.. I didn't know ppl were going to walk out of my life as quickly as they did and I surely didn't know God was already lining it up for me to continue growing, moving and touching others..With eyes full of tears, I had made up in my mind, I wanted to go back to what was familiar.. I wanted to have the "comfort" of calling my mom to hang out with me, I wanted to have the comfort of a church home where, it may not have always been peachy, but EVERYONE knew me, I wanted to go back to a job I HATED but was secure it getting paid weekly... BUT God said NO!!! He strategically placed me alone so that I could build a bond with my own daughter to mimic what my mother and I share, He placed me at The dReam Center Church of Atlanta because was time for me to spread,fly and share his word, he allowed me to meet a young sister and share words of encouragement reminding her, "We cannot start a new phase if we have NOT completely finished the previous one"Boy do I know about that..( Love you Ruthie) and lastly He placed me at this job because I had to encounter a young woman and give her the motivation and strength to Embrace Greater( love you Mel).. I had done all I could for the Youth of Boston and now its time to help women and young girls because so many of them are not living up to their fullest potential. Some "babies" that are planted within us are to large to be delivered in a "small" place. We have to go where the delivery can go smooth and where the "baby" will be fully nurtured, loved, not judged because of the circumstances they were produced( did u catch that)???

I started talking to God telling him, "This is hard..I have no one, the ppl I thought were going to be right here are gone... The people I wanted here are NOT as available and easily accessible as I thought they would be.. In those quiet moment where I could hear an ant outside my door, God comforted me with his loving arms and with these words.. "Better and Greater"...

My outlet became my writing. I had always wrote but now it came from a place deeper than before. It was coming from my soul. Through my writings, I've been able to help organizations secure money, I've witnessed to myself first and then others and above all I found a newer way to Exemplify my Passion.. an Author friend of mine once shared with me, that when you write, write from the heart so that your audience can feel it and relate to it. Funny thing, for each person that's touched, they all receive a different meaning for their life.. So amazing..

I've been patiently AWAITING my break. Jobs, ideas, business opportunities and meetings of the minds were preparing me for my OWN Greatness. God removed me from under others so I could use my own eyes and walk Boldly with Authority into my own Destiny. The tears I shed were my tears for my own future..
I write with a JOY and Peace in my heart because out of what I was gong to deem failure and an AWFUL day, God said NOT so!! I've always felt I was last, BUT God is showing me thru obedience and sacrifice the last surely does become the 1st!!

Whatever your passion is, do it from the heart. It will not go un-noticed. Where ever God is leading you go. We cannot give up until we've tried.. I'm reminded of my daughter, she absolutely HATES being punished. She has a room full of everything but will not play with it, BUT during those moments where she has no other choice but to be in there, she'll pick up Sarah and comb her hair, she will turn on her wii and"exercise" because she has NO other CHOICE!!! Do not let you Blessing come from an opportunity that God had to literally break you down to get your attention.
Walk in the authority of knowing that if you TRUST God, he's not going to leave you nor forsake you... He is Not going to leave you in the desert with no water.

Today, I passionately WRITE because its a Gift God has given me.. This gift opened up a PHENOMENAL door today and if I keep listening to God in a matter of time, its going to pay off...

I'm Inspired today because my yesterday wasn't the best,
My yesterday wasn't the Best because the week before my eyes we're Clouded with fear,
My eyes were clouded with fear because I was to lazy to look for MYSELF...
Today, they are opened with a new outlook and a new Vision..
I'm Seeing Greater and therefore I'm walking in it..
I've been emptied of Crazy"Ness"
And now filled with" Anything is possible, just Believe and TRUST God!!!

Be Inspired,
Be Encouraged!

Inspired to CHANGE, We all Can be Better for us!

"Change comes from within. I shed daily of the old me in order to produce a newer and improved "Che"Neka. I'm Not changing because I don't like who I am..I Change in order to grow. Growth comes from the lessons of life. As we pass each lesson, its not about being number 1, its about knowing we went in head first and accomplished what was set before us.. COMPLETION!!"

Some of us change in order to be a better mate, some of us change in order to be a better Lover.. I went through my CHANGE in order to be a better me. I woke up one day and I was extremely MISERABLE. I wasn't happy in my life. And I now realize, I didn't bring on the change, GOD was tired of me NOT living to my fullest capacity. He was tired of me just settling. What happens when things settle? They just fall and land where they may. I had fallen one to many times and it was time for me to stand on my own. It was time for me to leave my clutch( Boston, Ma) and experience life. I had questioned God many times asking him why such and such was happeningthe way it was, and in the Stillness my heart was comforted with, its time to SPREAD my wings. It's time to walk in my element and be all I was born to be!

Was it a hard transition? YES harder than you'll ever know. Was it worth it? YES in more ways than one. Not only did I find who I really am, but this journey has bought me to places and people I could've and would've never met if I stayed close minded!

A change doesn't always mean you're doing something wrong. A change ( to me) is God's way of saying" Come up just a little bit higher... Come up and soar with with, Come up and live the way I want ALL of my children to live".

Why keep settling for pennies, when there are dimes lying all around you? Why settle for that dog that has laid with numerous flies, when I have a Prince( wink), in the waiting? Your story may not be mine and vs verse, BUT we all have a story. We all have events that have transpired that have led us to believe if we think it we can obtain it.

Not only did I want better for me, BUT I'm my daughter's first teacher. And, if I'm not happy, that same funk was going to trinkle down to her. And its funny, when we go thru and suffer as do our children. My daughter woke up each day, but in her little mind she had worries too. My inspiration is HER..She inspires me to chase my dreams, she inspires me to be a better mom! What I produce will always be figments in her mind, so why NOT produce the Best Always? My life is an example to her that Even tohugh we're not a complete family(YET)..mommy loved her enough to leave the familiar and go after change.

In order for me to give and be all I can for her, I had to drop somethings that were NOT good for either of us...And once I made up in my mind that I'm going to do it the right way, even if it kills me, that's when the Peace, Love, Motivation and Strength filled my heart and finally, my wings were ready to spread.

Let your life's past stay where it is, BUT let it be a lesson LEARNED. Take on Every fear and Every obstacle with an I can do it Attitude..

I'm Inspired to Change, as you are too! We can all Be Better but it starts within.

Be Encouraged,
be Inspired!

In the Quiet & Still, LIFE will still move

" I Cannot stand still... Life will pass me by and I will wonder where my LIFE and time has gone...I MUST continue to follow my dreams, grab life by the horns and ride. Some rides and journeys are so meant to go along..In the quiet& still, I will still move along because "THERE" is still waiting for me"

In the Quiet& Still, Life HAS gone on...
The birds are singing, The rivers are flowing and flowers are blooming.

Life HAS gone on and we will continue to live..
Stillness HAS even moved because time has so patiently waited for us to catch up.

Babies have been born, and LIFE waited
Partners have walked out, and LIFE waited
Jobs have changed and YET LIFE has waited.

What is the wait?
Nothing has nor EVER will be perfect or JUST the way we want it.
Each hand is played differently in LIFE,
It's just a matter of HOW and when you play your Cards!

In the Quiet & Still, LIFE will wait no more!!
It will roar at us like a Lion,
The rays of light will shine,
And God's voice will speak LOUD & Clear
"Come to me".... His voice will say" I will Wait No More"...
I've been quiet and Still...
In Each moment I've been there... You stood and I carried you
You fell, I lifted you..
You cried, I dried the TEARS...
You stepped out, I lifted your foot to the next move...

Still"Ness" will be no more for you...
This is your time..
Walk to me, Run to me...Crawl if you MUST...
In the Quiet, In the Still..I await...

Time will be no more because THIS is your time!!
Walk to me, Run to me, Crawl if you MUST...
Get to me, I'm Calling..
Nothing will be perfect and LIFE cannot and will NOT wait anymore..
It goes on as must you..

In the Quiet& Still I've Stood still...
I cannot anymore..I'm calling..It's ME your Destiny..
Are you Ready??

Be Inspired,
Be Encouraged..Life, Take it and LIVE!!!

Hot Mama Club...Is your Membership Valid?

" Because I pushed out an 8 pound 11 ounce little girl with no medication, does NOT make me a Hot Mama. It's my style, elegance,grace, determination and commitment that does"...


Hot Mama, who me??

What makes me a Hot Mama?
It's not my nice hips that helped to carry my child,
Nor my nice round Breast that nursed my child,
It's Not the fact I have no real life of my own and EVERYTHING revolves around her...
It's Not my clothes,
Bags nor Shoes..

It's my Commitment,
It's my Commitment!!!

I'm committed to raising a well rounded young girl,
I'm committed to her well being,
I'm committed to her development,
And I'm committed to her knowing she is loved!

At times,it does take two parents to make a child and sometimes it does take 2 parents to give stability,
BUT,
All it takes is enough love and a warm heart from a Hot Mama to do it so GRACEFULLY!!!

A Hot Mama,
There's No manual for the hott"ness" that is needed to get this job,
Neither are there lessons or lectures to prepare you.
All you really need is a big Heart,
Commitment,
A stern Voice from time to time,
No Fear,
Kind Words & Encouragement!!

A Hot Mama,
You don't have to birth them to LOVE them..
All it takes is LOVE and a Big Heart!!

I'm a Hot Mama, Not by My Choice but the Choice of LIFE!!
Hot Mama, its a thank"LESS" job some days,
But the small hands and sweet I love you's Make it Worth it!!

Be Encouraged to raise Happy Children and they will
Inspire you to give Harder!!

Truth Be Told....

" We cannot make a person feel the same excitement we have when things are looking up for us, We cannot make them care, we cannot make them support us...HOWEVER, we can tell them less and they can watch us shine from the side line"...


Truth Be told,
I'm Strong,
I've been hurt and over came it in the same breath.

Truth Be Told,
I've been under estimated more than once,
I've been laughed at, I've been hurt and over came it in the same breath.

Truth Be Told,
I can love you and be your biggest support.
I've been told I love to hard and care to much..
I've been hurt being me, BUT in the same breath I over came it!

Truth Be Told,
I'm human,
I long for your Support, Encouragement, Touch and Smile...
I long to be treated with the same RESPECT and Equality as I give you.

Truth Be Told,
I'm a Woman,
A Strong Woman!
God Made me the way He did because he knew,
There would be people who would
Hurt Me,
Lie to me,
Talk about Me,
Disrespect Me,
Walk over Me,
Love Me,
Want Me,
Care for Me,
Support Me and Encourage Me!!

Truth Be Told,
I'm Not changing for anyone,
You Either appreciate my Spunk and Determination or Watch from the sideline!

Truth Be Told,
I'm going to keep shining, keep rising to the occasion,
and YOU or NOBODY else will stop me!!...... Truth Be Told!!!

Be Encouraged to Aim High
Be Inspired to LIVE!!!

Looking Past My own Flaws..... To LOVE Better

" Sometimes, I just want to yell... He never does anything right she yells into the phone..He puts everyone before Us.." I sat and listened hard to my friend, and I came to the conclusion, that in my own relationship I will NOT judge him because we all have our flaws..I will LOVE him and that's how WE will become Better.

I'm not perfect. I may joke about it alot but truly honestly, I'm NOT( Hahaha, jokes on me huh?lol).. I can't even begin to count on my two hands the amount of mistakes I make in one day. But one thing I do know for sure is that the love I hold in my heart for others is pure and true.
It's funny, I watch the relationships around me and I wonder what makes them last and what are they built on.

Each person has a number of flaws.. But a flaw is just what it is a:( Noun)
A feature that mars the perfection of something, defect, fault..(Dictionary.com)
My flaws are my hands are wrinkled,I have scars on my body from when I was younger,I have a slight belly,I have selective hearing and sometimes I'm NOT the easiest person to get along with. But, there are people out here who love me with all of my imperfections. And that's the least I can do in return.

Let's take baking for instance. I'm the worst at it, I tell you NO lie. My specialty are cupcakes. They are easy and I've mastered them. Yesterday, I made rice crispy treats at work with the children, to me they were the Most horrific treats I'd EVER seen. But, my daughter and her classmates LOVED them. And although they were children and most of them eat anything, it made me feel good to know that they liked them. I actually smiled to myself( sidenote, I will NOT try and make such a large quantity EVER again.)All it takes is for one person to appreciate something we deem as a flaw to make us feel better and loved. As humans, we long for that feeling of acceptance and appreciation.

When we can look past all of the things that are not perfect about us, it helps us to realize that, If I'm not perfect neither is the next person. So, who am I to pass judgement when we all are falling short? In relationships, its easy to see what the other person is doing wrong, but can we actually stop and notice our wrongs? Our flaws in the relationship?

In order for anything to work, it takes two people with willing hearts to see past them selves and see into the heart and soul of their mate. It takes honesty on both sides and TRUE love. You cannot say you truly love your mate when you do not have faith in them. You cannot say you love your mate when you nit pick about every little thing they do. With time, you will learn that somethings are NOT worth arguing. BUT, you will also know and understand when you need to voice your concerns. And concerns are not finger pointing remarks, they are remarks that will help the two of you to either build a stronger relationship or help you to determine if it's worth fighting for.

I'm patiently awaiting the day were I become 1 with a MAN that LOVES all of me, but until then I'm looking past my Flaws, Loving him the way he is.. And appreciating our LOVE because it makes us both Better!!

Be Inspired,
Be Encouraged!!

Your Flight is NO longer Delayed, Please fasten your Seat Belt!!

And the phone rings.." Girl, where are You have you guys landed"?? With excitement she yells" YES, we just landed, looking for my luggage now, See you Soon"!! With the same excitement we have when we finally get to our destination, that's the same JOY and excitement God has when he Grants us the desires of our heart.. We have walked into our calling and destiny, therefore keeping NO good things from us!!!


Life is full of delays...
Job promotions, marriage, purchasing homes, start up businesses, starting a family, just life in particular. And, I've learned its not because we're NOT worthy or Deserving of these things, its just NOT our time. There's still some bumps we have go smooth over, some clouds we have to cruise thru, a seat belt that needs to be tightened or repaired, before we can get up in the air and sail!

What are you doing to prepare for your flight to take off? Are you dropping dead weight, are you mending bad relationships, are you forgiving and meaning it in your heart? I've learned that in order to Fly, you have to make the proper preparations...

Some flights( dreams) take longer than others to take off. Not because its delayed "indefinitely", But because the atmosphere is preparing for you and your journey!!
We all may not travel the same.. some people are scare to:
Fly, therefore they take a train
Some people are scared of the train, therefore they take the bus,
Some people are scared of the bus, therefore they drive,
And some people can't take long drives so they walk..

Whatever your mode of travel may be, Fasten your seat belt, Your time is Quickly approaching..Get ready to take OFF!!!

Be Inspired
Be Encouraged!

SisterHOOd, a Bond like No other!

" I was given 2 biological sisters in my life. Although I have them, God has placed women in my life who have truly shown me what it is to have that sisterly bond. Today's blog is dedicated to ALL the women I affectionately call my Sissy, Big sis, lil sis and sister girl! Each of you add a puzzle piece to my life and I truly and honestly THANK-YOU"!

I HATE to admit this but I, Cheneka Trene' Hobbs IS NOT perfect and I do NOT know everything( Okay, mom are you happy, I'm finally shedding the weight of imperfection...Smile). I mess up, I say some truly mean things at times, I make irrational decisions from time to time, and sometimes I have the STANKIEST, FUNKIEST moods! But, you know what, that's what makes me human and a Woman for sure! And during those moments I can pick up the phone or send a text to my sister girls, tell them what I'm thinking, said or thought, or even done and INSTANTLY dialogue starts.
The conversations are never anything badgering or I told you so, But words of wisdom, strength, encouragement and LOVE that's needed from time to time.

Growing up, I was the oldest of 6 siblings( 2 sisters and 4 brothers). I ALWAYS found myself in protective mode, especially over the 3 brothers I grew up with. I was( and still am) quick with the tongue or fist straight to a chick who I deemed has hurt or disrespected one of my brothers. I'm still quick, BUT I've learned I cannot always protect them. And that some of their decisions are just plain DUMB( thank God they will NOT see this although I tell them all the time, Love you BFC..family insider)

But, deep down I've always longed for that feeling of having an older sibling to protect me. Slowly, but surely God began to place women in my life who have truly made the difference. And some of them you would think are biological because we've gone through some real battles as Real sisters would do. And in the end we talked it out, yelled and cried- But we truly understood the Pure- true Essence of Sisterhood and got over it and moved on!

This piece is dedicated to All of you- And I don't have to mention your names, because you will feel it in your heart if I'm talking to you!

My Friend, I call you Sister!!
Though Blood is thick, and defines Family,
Love surpasses it and bonds us like no other!
I call you when I'm down I call you when I'm up,
And your response is the same" Awww, Girl I got you"...
My Friend, I Call you Sister!!!

I never understood what it meant to be a little sister, until I became yours,
I get those check-in calls and text messages that let me know I'm being thought of!
It's NOT easy being a little sister BECAUSE at times I'm wrong(LOL),
But your response is always the same, Awww, Girl I got you"...
My Friend, I call you Sister!!!

The statement Real Recognizes Real is very true, BECAUSE with my eyes in You I RECOGNIZE...
Love,
Peace,
Strength,
Character,
Determination,
Encouragement,
Laughter,
Tears,
Joy,
Happiness!
And no matter when I call or text, your response is always the same..
"Awww, girl I got you"..
And knowing that makes ALL the difference in the world!!!

My Friend, I take Pride in Calling you My Sister!

Truth Be Told, I went thru, conquered &Now I feel Better..

"Sometimes we have to go through to get ahead and the test isn't the actual trial...BUT the results and the lives we touch once its ALL over".... I've gone through to help you and TRUTH be told, I feel better!!!


Have you ever had that uncontrollable cry that just wouldn't stop? Just when you thought you could wipe your face for the last time, the flood gates re-open and you are boo hooing again? Or have you ever felt, okay this is the last time I'm going to deal with this situation, I'm wiping my hands and moving on? Been there and done that, funny thing it wasn't completely over!! There were still a few tears that had to be shed and a few more trials you needed to go through before you could fully say..Truth be told, I went thru, Conquered & Now I feel better!!

Some of life's most poignant lessons are the ones we experience alone while we are down and out. During those lessons, we find the strength the keep on striving and keep moving forward. We will most likely NEVER share the exact same experience, BUT the good thing is, you went thru to help me and I went thru to help you...
Truth be told, "WE" went thru, Conquered & Now "WE" feel better!

Have you ever felt that you are at your BREAKING point and about to snap? You keep telling people to watch out, stay out of your space and to respect you and what you're dealing with? Only to keep finding yourself in the same situation, repeating yourself and getting hotter by the minute? and just when you are about to snap, there is a calmness that comes over you and you make it thru without harming someone?
Truth be told, "YOU" went thru & Now "YOU" feel better!

Truth Be Told, we are built to go thru,
We are built to suffer, We are built to be hurt..
Truth Be Told,
Each ordeal will make us Stronger and able to Stand the Test!
Truth Be Told, We are Conquerors and in the End we shall Win!!
Truth be Told, I went thru,
Conquered & Now I Feel Better!!

Be Encouraged
Be Inspired!!

Self"LESS" giving...

" I don't give to expect things in return, I give to see others smile and I give because that is how I'm BleSSed"

When I was younger, I truly never understood what it meant to give from the heart. I would give and expect something, anything in return! I didn't fully understand that giving comes from the heart and sometimes the gift isn't something you can see physically... As time has progressed, I've learned some of the gifts I've received in return are immeasurable.

I've now learned to give unconditionally. I give because it feels right in my soul and it truly is a wonderful feeling to know you've put a smile on someone's face.

I'm also teaching my daughter to give. I have a bad habit of over buying for her. There fore, leaving some outfits being worn only once. I teach her that when we give to others, we then receive blessings in return. She;s becoming a good sport at helping me go through the things she cannot fit or even play with so we can pass them on to someone else.

When it comes to my relationship with God, I give of my time and sharing of his word to non-believers. In the end, we will be held accountable for this. One of his biggest requirements is to share what he has blessed us with with others. I'm constantly told that my words and blogs inspire others, but truth be told I'm always talking to myself first. I cvannot expect my words to touch others without first touching or encouraging myself.

So today, I challenge each of you to give Self"leSS"ly. Give until you cannot give anymore...This may sound funny to some but it TRULY works for me...I'm a serious bag lover...And I have all types of bags, high end to Target..As of lately, I've found myself giving away my older bags that I no longer use or carry as much. And I've noticed that when I do that, I'm blessed over and over time again. I'm not giving in hopes that someone is going to give me something in return, I give just to make someone else happy. and when we can truly understand and give from our hearts, we've conquered the test of Self"LESS" Giving!

Be Encouraged
Be Inspired, GIVE!

I MUST walk alone

" last nite I cried, not because I was sad, hurt or upset... I cried because I no longer feel alone...In my weakest hour he has there and sustained me and for that I'm Grateful"


Today my journey began,
I woke up and knew it was time to go.
I didn't have the time to call my mom, I grabbed my daughter and our most personal objects and we left.
See, this journey isn't about anyone but me... In order for me to grow and make it..
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

I cannot tell you where I'm going because I have no time for your words of discouragement
Because YOU do not understand, REFRAIN from hindering me..
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

This journey has been well thought out and scenarios played out in my head,
However, leaving the familiar is going to be the hardest part..
But, in order to grow, in order to flourish,
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

My journey isn't because I'm running or hiding,
My journey isn't because I'm scared,
My journey is because it's time for me to grow!
But in order to grow, in order to flourish...
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

My Destiny is calling,
On its way to be fulfilled,
But in order for me to accept it and be at Peace...
I MUST walk alone!!

Be Inspired
Be Encouraged!

Striving, Dreaming, Reaching!!! BAM!!

"I'm just me..Here where I am, doing what I do, living how I should live, Loving who I am and Grateful for where I'm going...This is not the finale...Just the Introduction"


It's hard to sit somewhere and try to feel and be complacent when you know, there's so much more for you to contribute. Sometimes, I just sit and think back over my life and I am filled with tears and so many emotions.. God has been so good to me!! Today was first fruit Sunday at church.. I planned to give something totally different but I couldn't do it today, but by the 1st Sunday in May, my church will have my full pledge!!

God told me, you may not give your full amount, but honor me with the 1st tithe off your new job.. I did JUST that, gave my regular offering and gave the portion I had of my first fruit offering, and I had my daughter to give her 1st fruit offering as well. See, I'm teaching her that thru our giving to God and others he keeps us blessed. During my transition from Boston to Connecticut to my current home in Atlanta, God promised me, If I keep him 1st in all of my giving, keep him 1st in my prayers, keep him 1st in EVERY little thing he blesses me with, My daughter and I will never go without and EVERYTHING I attempt will be successful.

See, I'm striving with a dream... I already see it happening, BUT I just have to continue to reach.. Just because we see things turning around in our favor on our behalf we cannot stop right there. This is just a mere taste of what we're going to experience when we are totally aligned with God and his will for our life!

I'm not settling for my today because my tomorrows are going to unlock the door to EVERYTHING I've ever dreamed of. If each of us could just catch hold of a dream, "Our Dream and NOT somebody else's, give it to God and watch it grow.. Oh My, the world would be filled with all types of successful people! We're all not to be business owners, we have some ppl who are going to be successful at running the business for the owner, we have some ppl who are going to be successful at keeping the books, we have some ppl who are goingt o be successful and just keeping the atmosphere positive.. We are each commanded and mandated with a different call and purpose for the Lord!!

Because my dream isn't yours and yours isn't mine, It DOES Not mean that one is more important than the other. When we look with our natural eye, we become intimidated and we feel that its unattainable and we cannot reach for it.. We have to look with our super natural EYE and REACH until we cannot reach anymore. and befor you know it, we're going to grab onto one of those sparkling stars and its going to be nothing but Uphill from there.

My challenge is to each and EVERY person that's going to read this blog, to Dream, Reach, Strive and Excel!!
We become our own worst enenmy when we allow ppl who cannot see what we see to crush our DREAM!!! I refuse to allow a DKW to stop my dream and block my harvest.. What's for me is for me and if you be nice, I will share the Wealth!!

Be Encouraged,
Be Inspired to Dream!!

Conditioning Our Thoughts, produce BETTER Results!!

" I sing because I'm Hsppy, I sing because I'm Free..My thoughts are my own, and I'm accountable for my actions. And because of that I Control my HappineSS.. I Think and Feel I'm Happy so I will ALWAYS be Happy"!!!


The other nite I was reminded, the way I wake up is how my daughter will wake up when I go into her room. It's true, the signals we give off are 100 percent what we get in return. This am, I worked in the infant room because we were short staffed. I went into the room with high spirits and because of that, I did not want to leave out. The babies were so loving and kind. Full of smiles, I had no other choice but to give that same energy to them as well.

In our own lives, we are responsible for our own happiness. We cannot allow people, objects, money or jobs to fulfill our happiness. We have to control it because if we don't we will always be looking for the next 'thing" to fill the void. Some people will never truly understand what it is to be happy because they are continuously looking for it, when in actuality it starts within us.

Have you ever woke up in a nasty mod and your whole entire day went down the drain? Even down to your food, nothing was right... Then, have you ever woke up on a Happy high and you stayed that way the entire day? There it is, prime Example you controlled your Happiness..

Even in our relationships, there will be days where we will look to our partner to complete us, to make us happy or to even understand... The Happiness must first be within us so that our partner can do his/her job. In or relationships, our individuality adds luster to the relationship... We are no longer I,I, I but we are together. We were chosen by our partner because there was something in us that lined up with what they were looking for.

We can only control ourselves. And until we learn to control and change ourselves we will always feel the need to change someone else.

Today, I will control my words..therefore producing positive sentences
Today, I will control my thoughts..therefore producing positive actions
Today, I will control my face.. therefore producing a SMILE!!!

Be Inspired
Be Enocoraged!!!

My RIGHT now ISN'T the FINAL outcome...

" Just when you think the sun isn't going to shine, the bills are NOT going to get paid, you'll NEVER find a job or you're mate will never get it together.... A small remind comes your way and says...This is NOT the Final Outcome"


Just the other day as I walked to work with my ipod on, I was thinking. My thoughts were this.." God, why do you love me so much? Why do you continue to look out for me and provide for m daughter and I"? You've shown up and shown out on my behalf so much that I'm forever grateful.I have visions and this time next year I will not be where I am, and you know why? My "right now" isn't my final destiny. My right now is helping to pave the way for me to walk/run/ or even skip right into it.

Have you ever wondered WHY things are just not going your way? Have you ever thought about wanting to do better, but spoke the words it's NOT going to happen out of your Mouth? We have to learn and understand, what we put out into the atmosphere is what we will reap. If you put out all negative, negative will come to you. If you speak life into dead dormant situations, these situations will have no other choice but to change.

We each have the power within to make our dreams into realities. If we condition ourselves EVERYDAY with the thought that this WILL be the BEST day ever, we will have no other choice but to believe it. BUT if we constantly wake up, mulling around and mopping, then you guessed it, It will be a day from Hell.

Let's STOP allowing our RIGHT now to control the FINAL outcome... I work from home, helping non profits and serious individuals find money to start up businesses but I was becoming cramped and needed to get out of the house. I first started in m daughter's school helping with the reading program, BUT I wanted more. So, there's a learning center at the end of my street and we pass it quite frequently. I began to condition my thinking with, " I'm going to work there". I'm now working there.. To some it may sound real superficial, BUT to me( although it's mainly a way to network and give back to the little people..I LOVE KIDS), I put into the atmosphere what I wanted, I petitioned it before God and he made it available. I do not plan on being there for a long while because My DREAM is bigger than that, However I'm going to thank God for NOT allowing my RIGHT now( being in the house) to be my FINAL outcome..

What do you want to change? Are you speaking positive words into the atmosphere? Are you conditioning your thinking..And speaking those things that are NOT as though they ARE??

Be Encouraged
Be Inspired, Dream!!

A Woman with a Dream....

" I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth, BUT yet when I'm dressed you'd never know.... I take pride in smelling good, looking nice, and speaking like I know what I'm talking about...I'm a WOMAN..."


Its not easy being a Minority Woman( and I'm NOT just addressing sisters of color)... To me, all women are of the minority. We are NOT expected to hold down Corporate jobs, raise children, run a household and sometimes take up the slack for Fathers, BUT we do it and do it Oh so Gracefully..

I remember watching my mother struggle to take care of my brothers and I. It wasn't always easy but she did the best with what she had and made it happen. One of my happiest days was attending her graduation with her receiving a degree in Computer Automation. To myself, I was like, "My mom did it". After that, she climbed up in the world and was able to get a better job all because she took that step.

Its easy to get stuck in a runt and not want to pursue anything else. We deal with so much garbage on a day to day basis. I remember when I was back home, living in Boston. I had so many dreams and aspirations, BUT because I had a wonderful career doing what I do best and bringing home a nice paycheck every week, I kind of but it on the back burner. Then, one day I woke up and felt this isn't it anymore. Although I was getting up going to work every morning, the fire I had to perform at my best was slowly but surely slipping away and my heart was telling me to pursue my dreams. My best friend once told me, "Nek you're an awesome writer and you need to pursue it and go for it"... It never really dawned on me that maybe this was a true gift from God. It took me to lose it all in order to Fully allow God to lead and direct me...

I'm now taking my gift and using it to the best of my ability. I write, mentor and help organizations because this is the GIFT God has given me and I refuse to let it go to waste.

Women, we have to really learn to follow our hearts and not the dream of a man or anything else that is not truly ours. We can make it in this world because we have the strength and power within. I'm learning that, I'm my daughter's 1st teacher. She will learn the importance of taking care of herself through me.. I cannot and will not let her down. We have to press through even when we cannot see it with our own eyes, we have to press through even when we're left to raise children alone and be their sole provider. We have to press through even when we don't want to read and finally obtain that degree we've been working so hard to obtain.

Today, my sisters I'm saluting each of you who are making it happen.. And I also encourage the ones of you who need that push.. The Power and Courage is there, REACH in Grab it and Soar!!!

Be Inspired, Be the difference.. DREAM!!!

dReams..... ...

" At nite, when you close your eyes think happy thoughts and happy dreams will entertain you while you count sheep" CTH...

I never fully understood what it meant to dream. When I was younger, I would associate my dreams with how I wanted my future to look, who I would marry, where I would live the kind of work I would do. See, I always wanted to be a lawyer. My mom always told me I have a way with words( which now, I finally understand what she meant). Though, my path would lead down a different road, I am a lawyer. I help people find solutions and I enjoy defending children, because sometimes we have to be their voice in this cold world.

Sometimes, our dreams do not come full circle because we do not have enough Faith and Hope. As I sat with my nieces having breakfast today, we talked about a number of things..What touched me was that one of them said, " I did not have money for my trip( they are in Atl on Spring Break) until the day before we left". I looked at her and could understand what she meant.

During my transition, I quit my job in order to start preparing myself to leave. I knew when I wanted to leave BUT my Faith wasn't strong enough then. I had to close my eyes a few more weeks and dream happy thoughts to prepare myself to leave! In order to see it, we have to want it bad enough that we can taste it, right on the tip of our tongue. In life, we have to want to do better and mean it from our heart in order for it to happen. As in our Christian walk, we have to want the more and more of God in order to be sustained and given the strength to fight the enemy.

My transition taught me that I AM MY DREAM!!! In order for our dreams to come into fruition, we have to always make sure we are in the right place. It doesn't necessarily have to be the right time, just the right place fully positioned.

I knew God was positioning my life, I just didn't fully understand what he was positioning it for. But, because I choose to live for him and cast everything that would cause a hinderance to the side, he has placed a job, a church and people in my path for his cause and purpose.. All the while showing me that, If I dream, he's going to make it happen..

...I dreamed to relocate, TODAY I live in Georgia
... I dreamed to work in my field again, TODAY I have a job giving back
... I dreamed to be loved for me, TODAY he loves me for ALL of me
... I dreamed for a beautiful family, TODAY marks one day m daughter has been 6 yrs old
... I dreamed to have sisters I could talk too, TODAY I have many

.....Dreams, what are yours?? Are you making yours happen??

Be Encouraged, Be Inspired and Be Yourself!!!

My trues Reflection

" Our words and actions Go along way. They give the purest description of our internal person by displaying them on the external. What are your words and actions saying"?

Just the other day my 5 year old daughter said to me,"mommy you don't give me enough attention". She will jump up and down and even do silly things just so that I will look at her. And once I'm looking, she continues with what she was doing before that moment she felt I was focused on something else. I know what a majority of her problem is, she's an only child and she has already voiced wanting a sibling( which I'm totally game for...eehhmmm, clearing my throat).... Her actions and words sometimes are a result of how she is feeling. And sometimes as adults, our actions and words are a result of how we are feeling. Have you ever had an argument and someone walked up and caught an off the hook response from you because of how you're feeling on the inside? You then looked at the receiver's face an in that instant felt extremely apologetic?

I have been there and done that before. Last nite, I was talking to my sistergirl(LC) and we both agreed that just because we are feeling a certain way on the inside, it shouldn't be a reflection of that on the outside. In all things, we should be able to separate our inner issues and put on a happy face. Have you ever encountered someone and they were just in a runt? You just wanted to yell to them, get it together it's not that bad?? Or, you've seen someone so extremely happy and you thought, please nothing in the world is all that good? I'm smiling because that's ME!!! As I transitioned into my Destiny, I realized my actions and thoughts will block my blessings if I don't began to change. It took a while, but I had to come to a Peace and Understanding in my own Heart that God does not want his children to live below the standards he has set before us. He wants our actions and words to reflect a peaceful place. I NEVER want to be in a place where all I think is negative because eventually that will be all I produce. I want my words to be of encouragement. I've learned that if you can encourage yourself you can encourage others. The whole point is to let our lights so shine that Men may see our Good works, and those good works are to glorify the Father.

Today, allow your frown to turn upside down into a smile... Let a negative word or thought go. Is it worth hurting someone in the moment, only to feel awful about it later?
I will allow my words and actions to give off the Peace of God that lives within my heart. In my saddest moment I will display a smile because someone in this world has it worse than I do( which by the way, I'm GOOD so any better than this...WOW!!!!)
What will you be saying and doing today??

Be Blessed and ?Please Have a Nice/Blessed Day

NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING is perfect about me BUT HIS LOVE Heals me....

"I fall off the"WALK" sometimes. I get discouraged, I cry and I get Mad. Sometimes I don't want to be bothered and I can catch an attitude.An unchoice word may slip, BUT in the End knowing HE doesn't judge me and HE LOVES me Unconditionally makes my Heart smile"

Some days I look at my body and I say why can't I have perfect abs, why can't my legs look like Kelly Ripa's and why are all of these freckles appearing out of no where?? I'm telling you, my body has so many imperfections, as does mt life. But GOD, He loves me through it all. Some days, I just sit and do a re-cap of my life. I sit and think about all the awful decisions I've made, the awful thoughts and actions I've had and performed and through it ALL, HE loves me. He doesn't judge me and HE knows EVERYTHING.. He knows about the time I attempted to steal a bottle of very fine grape juice from the corner store( and the owner noticed it, walked me home to my momma and she went to town on my butt), he even knows about the times( about 3 yrs long) I poured water in my baby bro's bed and he got a whipped in the am for it!!
But, I wasn't judged. Although I've been forgiven for those things, those were choices and actions that I'm NOT proud of. But, because he loves me from the inside out, I've been redeemed, forgiven, loved all over again and offered a second chance!

God's LOVE is amazing, it heals me in places that a human can't. When my heart is broken into tiny small pieces, he picks them up and repairs my heart, NEW! When I have questions, need answers and humans just cannot comprehend what I'm feeling, he soathes me and quiets the storm. When I want to throw in the towel and run from problems, in him I find the strength and courage to wake up and go at it all over again.

People will judge you and talk about you in the same breath( I'm Guilty of it)BUT, its in that moment I'm reminded.... "Nothing is Perfect about you Cheneka, it is through my Love, Grace and Forgiveness that you are forgiven and given a new chance at joining me in Heaven."

Remember, we live to change and grow daily and if you work on YOU and YOU alone, then you are one step closer to God!!

Be Blessed!

It's Not a Game, This is MY LIFE.....

" I was born and CREATED to exemplify Love, Peace, Happiness and God's Grace.... So, if you have a misunderstanding and quite can't comprehend my mission, just watch me..I'm Growing and Changing EVERYDAY"


So many times the trial of life would have us to forget that we were born to make and take deposits for/from world, so that when the right time came around we could make withdrawls( and even receieve more deposits).. Don't get it? Check this out..

By the age of 5, most of us were in kindergarten. We were taught the basic fundamentals that would help us to make it to the next grade. And we would continue to receive these Educational deposits up until 12th grade. If and when we decided to further our education, we signed up to receive 2-4 more years of deposits( but these deposits came with a sacrifice)

At the end, we received our degrees, therefore putting us into a place where we now can make a difference. We will now use all of those deposits to to help us perform at our job.. During our time on the job, our clients and co-workers will at times require a "withdrawl"... This is when, all that was given to you will be able to go back out and help some one else...

If we teach, all of those lessons on verbs,nouns, adjectives, sentence structure and etc will come to our remembrance as we teach the new generation!

We can look at our spiritual lives the exact same way...God constantly makes deposits into our lives with numbers of blessings. Whether they be financial, knowledge, peace or even understanding, HE gives it to us. and he expects that at times he can withdraw from us and bless others. To be Blessings are endless. We are blessed so that we can go and bless others. I'm constantly reminded a tight hand will never be blessed because they are not allowing anything to enter or exit!!

This is our life, and we can control the good and bad energies we put into the atmosphere. I'm a firm believer if you feed in Positive, you will receive positive. Let's been in a place where we are exemplifying God's Grace, Love, Peace and Happiness allowing our deposits and withdrawls to help enhance our lives and someone else's!!

Today and EVERYDAY I'm pumped! I'm ready to help someone else because what they withdraw out of me, will be deposited back into my life ten fold!!

Be Encouraged!!