My daughter is visiting with her Dad in Boston( our home town). He and I have slowly developed better co-parenting skills although we are two in different states. When he initially called and told me he wanted her to visit, I was okay. However, when he called back and told me he purchased her ticket and then told me the dates my heart sank. 5 whole weeks I thought? Well damn!!! That's the entire summer. I instantly wanted to find ways to change the dates but after I thought about it, I have her all year round and its only right to let him have his time as well. As the month of June approached, I began to feel sad. My daughter is my little BFF. We share laughs, she helps me to pick out my clothes, she's my Sunday photographer,she motivates me on my journey to be fit& healthy, she walks with me, she helps me to cook, she helps with her little brother and she gives really great hugs... How was I going to live without her for 5 whole weeks? Then reality slapped me, I have her throughout the entire year. And although I share each activity, experience, accomplishment and event with her father via text, phone call and pictures it's not the same. He too deserves to have memories with her and time to bond with her just as I do..
She has now been gone a little over 2 weeks. I'm okay with it but the void is there. I miss my baby's voice, I miss seeing her get dressed( for those who know Li, this is always a challenge. she has her own sense of style and sometimes its a bit out there.. lol) I miss her telling her brother to stop... okay I'm rambling!!!
This morning, her step mother sent me the cutest pictures( the collage you see above). Her step mother has a teenage daughter. When she could be out doing the things a teenager love, she took the time to take out Li's braids and wash it so her father wouldn't have too( Thanks Chey, you ROCK for that move)!! and Li even allowed her to style it and give her ponytails..... WAIT, HOLD UP... She would never allow me to give her ponytails. The love she has for her older sister is amazing. I was reassured that they both love each other equally.
While I will always be her Mother, it's okay for her to be loved by others. She has a Father who loves her just as much as I do and other family members too. This sharing my babygirl will definitely have to grow on me but as she spends more time away from me, it will help both of us grow BUT it will never change how much I LOVE HER.... A Mother's LOVE...... Now hurry up already and come on Li... No,, seriously I MISS You!!
Love always,
Mommy
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