It's Only a Test....

"We're only as strong the commitments we make and the friendships that are tied to them"

I'm guilty.. Guilty of getting upset with people, not telling them how I truly feel and then writing them off. Yup, I'm admitting it. I know that I'm extra, but my extraness makes me. I'm extra with loving hard and pushing others but I fail with doing the same thing with myself.

Yesterday's message at church was a tough pill to swallow because Pastor Dee was talking to me. I follow thru with my child, I have consistency with her. But when it comes to me, yeah I fail. I instantly thought of a few friendships I've made during my short time in Georgia and it made heart ache. I'm secure and confident in who I am and I sometimes expect each person I meet to posses some of these same qualities. I'm learning that, we're all made different for specific reasons.

I sat and thought of my mission in life. I'm here to be a service to women and children. I'm always reminded of my 1st year here when I didn't have a huge support team. I had a few relatives here but there was distance between us. When I finally landed a job it was then I began to meet people. Thru meeting various people I learned more about me as I encountered people of different backgrounds and lifestyles.

Yesterday, I spent sometime with a sisterfriend. It's funny how we always expect to be the one teaching a lesson when in actuality, the lesson has already been taught we just need to live by the results.
It's funny, I've felt for a while since I've been away from Boston, I've become an out of mind our of sight relationship with quite a few people. How ironic, I felt the same way about the sistergirl I was with. And it hit me like a ton of breaks, God allowed our paths to cross for a specific reason. I'm here to encourage and help and just because a person has been removed it doesn't mean the task has been completed. After our conversation yesterday, God reminded me that the work wasn't done and although I thought it was he reminded me, do unto others as I do unto you. and that means, the same way God blesses me I'm to pass it forward and bless others.

I know personally that sometimes, I give up. I don't give up because I'm lazy, I give up when I feel a person isn't listening or trying. Hmmmmmm, but GOD never gives up on me. Lately, alot of things have been returning to my memory because( like I previously stated) my path has crossed with specific people for specific reasons.

I can no longer fail these simple test. I need to take responsibility for who and what has been placed in my path and do whatever the job is that has been set before me. Task are not complicated, we make them complicated by not following thru and having to revisit them down the line.

I'm never to big to apologize and I found myself in a somewhat of an apologetic state with a few people I've encountered. I'm not sorry because it failed or we fell out. I'm sorry I didn't pass the test. My test are tied up to my blessings, if I pass I'm blessed. If I fail, I have to start from the beginning all over again. Sheesh, that's a lot of work!

So, today my challenge is that we find the strength within ourselves to simply pass the test. I mean seriously, how hard can it be? Just like in school you either know the answer or you don't. PERIOD~

Each day I become stronger when I help someone else. When I help to build character and provide consistency and share how I really feel vs walking away, I'm doing the work God has placed me on Earth to do!

~Make your Day gREat and your life gReater~