Lastnight as I sat in the airport, I thought of my life. There has been a revolving door with people entering. And the sad part about it, many have left their baggage with me. While most would be mad, I've come to the realization it's time I dump this stuff MySelf. Asking people to take ownership is like pulling teeth. I will own my OWN mishaps and let it go.
The next phase of my life fully depends on my ability to began the process of healing myself. Most people start this process after bad break ups, divorces etc... That's great and commendable. But my process stems from harboring resentment,bad feelings &unresolved relationships etc..
Today, I no longer want to be Her. I no longer want to carry this weight. I'm not bitter but I'm definitely NOT better. Today, I want to start the journey of embracing better. Today, I want to began the process of healing myself. How can one do that? It starts with forgiving Yourself.
We've all been hurt before. And if you're like me, rather than facing the hurt you've covered it up with something else. Today, I'm letting go. I physically began the process by removing some items out of my home: Closure. I also started a journal to keep track of my own growth. Somethings you cannot share with others, they just won't understand. Today begans the journey of Cheneka living a fulfilled life, with no pretense & no expectations of others.
Yesterday I allowed raw emotions to take me to a place that acknowledged I need to be healed.
My loves, my journey may not be yours and that's ok. The thing is we all have something we're battling. I totally encourage you to journey with me on your own path of healing.
Signed,
Day 1, I cried
This was totally me this weekend. It feels good to finally let go
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