Sidenote: This piece is just me getting in touch with the writer in me.. Not necessarily how I'm feeling today BUT it is bits and pieces of my life over the years... I hope that you can relate to it in some way and understand that no matter the circumstance(even for my male readers) He picked you 2~
I once read that, when you let out the fear, upsets, highlights and lows of the day, it helps you to sleep better. I don't know accurate that statement is but here goes...
Today wasn't a good day. I felt like crying more than I smiled and sometimes just to hold it all together I had to take moments just to let it all out.
They say LOVE is blind but how do you overlook the LOVE you see daily that treats you as if you don't exist?
Water is free they say, Whelp if you have to charge me 25cent to pour it into a cup, I'll let that cup pass from me...
You want to get ahead, but the cards seem to keep dealing you "Uno" draw 4's and Skips....
My turn has been skipped again, the call went unanswered and here I am left like a drying leaf waiting too to be blown in the wind AGAIN...
Please pick me, pick me... No!
The grass looks greener on the other side but once I jumped the fence to get a glimpse and maybe take a roll in it, there were patches of brown where it hasn't been watered.... Gone untended...
My soul, my soul is weary...
I just want to feel like Jesus is listening but my mind keeps saying,
"Girl, he Ain't thinking about you"..
So, i keep searching in hopes that Jesus will see me
But YET I keep hearing my own voice saying
Please pick me~
But what I've failed to realize is that I was picked way before my parents thought of me.
I was picked way before the hurts, misunderstandings, lies and pains..
He picked me~
Little ole me,
The girl that was so misunderstood that even I was afraid to spread my OWN wings and HE gave them to me.
The little girl, who wanted a nose job so bad I fantasized about being called cute.
Pick Me, Pick me..
Love me like there's no tomorrow,
Hold me close to your heart to keep me from falling.
Respect me as I respect you,
Understand me when I'm not even making any sense.
Listen to my dreams,
Understand my journey.
Don't try to change me
BUT
Enhance what I've already been called to do.
Understand there can be no REAL us, until You become true to YOU...
He chose Me for this journey..
I opened my wings, that HE gave me and I began to fly.
So on today,
Although I cried just a little,
my frown was replaced with a smile.
although, I'm questioning where I am in life today,
I know new horizons and opportunities will await me upon opening my eyes 2morrow..
Tomorrow is so close, so near, I smell it
Nobody is holding me back but me and these fears...
I'm going to close my eyes and look for me..
Look for that Woman
HE has created me to be..
She's there,
Waiting to be embraced,
and you know, the most FASCINATING part about being Me is....
HE picked ME~
I can really receive what you are saying. Sometimes its hard to see that you have been "picked". You feel like you are on the sidelines jumping and waving your hands, Hey God, I did everything your word says that I should do. I prayed, paid my tithes, I didn't cuss that person out even though they really deserved it. So why are you still passing me by. When is it my turn coach(God). One of my Pastor's use to say that everything is wonderful when you are having your mountaintop experience but at some point you must come down, meaning you enter back into the natural. Its not that easy to see God's goodness and mercy when you are in the natural. You tend to see the imperfections and disappointments. So, that is why its so important to hold onto your faith and remember that through it all God has carried you, even when you didn't know you. So in essence he has picked you. And in those times you have to remove yourself from the natural and go back into the supernatural, your spiritual side to see that not only have you been picked to be on God's team but you are his star player! Be blessed!
ReplyDeleteOMGosh Neka,
ReplyDeleteYou are so gifted, and yes He has picked you. You are unique and blessed. I love your writings and I love you....Mom