Pottying 1 on 1

It's been Hell but we've made progress! Yes, Potty training boychild. 

There's been good days and bad. Some days where I feel he has it and some days where I've been tempted to get diapers and call it a day. I mean, I potty trained girlchild in less than 2 weeks but this lil joker; I've been drained. 

And the worst part has been the fact that I've successfully helped other parents but couldn't do it for my own child. 

I was talking to a former client and she said, " Neka you're making it comfortable for him by letting him have a pull op at night"... Ouch! I had to hear it I guess. So I finished out those last 4 pull ups and he has not wore one in going on 3 weeks. 

Wow! It's been that long. My heart smiles. I knew it was time, it was just a matter of reassuring him that he's a big boy and sometimes big boys make mistakes. He has not wet the bed since our transition. And while he has not mastered going "stinky", I'll take him saying, "Ahmee I potty", and we make a mad dash to the restroom. 

My little boychild is becoming a big boy. And I'm ok with letting go. It's such a different transition with my son than with my daughter. But as we grow together, I'm anticipating all that's in store. 

Parenting isn't the easiest but these small wins, I'll take them Any Day!!

Signed,

A Happy Mommy of a Big Boy 

He Picked ME~

Sidenote: This piece is just me getting in touch with the writer in me.. Not necessarily how I'm feeling today BUT it is bits and pieces of my life over the years... I hope that you can relate to it in some way and understand that no matter the circumstance(even for my male readers) He picked you 2~

I once read that, when you let out the fear, upsets, highlights and lows of the day, it helps you to sleep better. I don't know accurate that statement is but here goes...

Today wasn't a good day. I felt like crying more than I smiled and sometimes just to hold it all together I had to take moments just to let it all out.

They say LOVE is blind but how do you overlook the LOVE you see daily that treats you as if you don't exist?

Water is free they say, Whelp if you have to charge me 25cent  to pour it into a cup, I'll let that cup pass from me...

You want to get ahead, but the cards seem to keep dealing you "Uno" draw 4's and Skips....

My turn has been skipped again, the call went unanswered and here I am left like a drying leaf waiting too to be blown in the wind AGAIN...

Please pick me, pick me... No!

The grass looks greener on the other side but once I jumped the fence to get a glimpse and maybe take a roll in it, there were patches of brown where it hasn't  been watered.... Gone untended...

My soul, my soul is weary...
I just want to feel like Jesus is listening but my mind keeps saying,
"Girl, he Ain't thinking about you"..
So, i keep searching in hopes that Jesus will see me
But YET I keep hearing my own voice saying
Please pick me~

But what I've failed to realize is that I was picked way before my parents thought of me.
I was picked way before the hurts, misunderstandings, lies and pains..
He picked me~
Little ole me,
The girl that was so misunderstood that even I was afraid to spread my OWN wings and HE gave them to me.
The little girl, who wanted a nose job so bad I fantasized about being called cute.

Pick Me, Pick me..
Love me like there's no tomorrow,
Hold me close to your heart to keep me from falling.
Respect me as I respect you,
Understand me when I'm not even making any sense.
Listen to my dreams,
Understand my journey.
Don't try to change me
BUT
Enhance what I've already been called to do.
Understand there can be no REAL us, until You become true to YOU...

He chose Me for this journey..
I opened my wings, that HE gave me and I began to fly.

So on today,
Although I cried just a little,
my frown was replaced with a smile.
although, I'm questioning where I am in life today,
I know new horizons and opportunities will await me upon opening my eyes 2morrow..
Tomorrow is so close, so near, I smell it
Nobody is holding me back but me and these fears...

I'm going to close my eyes and look for me..
Look for that Woman
 HE has created me to be..
She's there,
Waiting to be embraced,
and you know, the most FASCINATING part about being Me is....
HE picked ME~