Pretty Wings

I remember this just like it was yesterday. I was out walk/running and I saw this beautiful butterfly. "She" was down. I watched her for quite some time. It seemed as though she took a hard fall and was trying to get back in her groove. As I stood and watched her fight thru it, I thought of all the amazing women I know. Married, Single, Divorced, Lost, struggling, Abused, Hurt, Confused... I thought of each of you. 

So many times, the cares of the world weigh us down. We take on everyone's issues an we lose our way. 

As I watched "her", she stumbled a few times, even tried to spread her wings but it was premature. She wasn't fully ready to spread her wings. I still continued to " watch".. In a way, I was like the world. Passing judgment on her, somewhat waiting to see her fail again. And let's not front, we know there are people out here who despise our process. 

I digress; I go back to this point because it's so true. Many people knew I was going to fail when I relocated.  They just knew this " butterfly" was going to find her way back home... But where was home? Home will embrace you, push you and support you.  Home, I was in search of home. 

Before I knew it, I had spent a great deal of time watching the butterfly that I'd lost track. What as supposed to be a brisk walk/ run turned into a self examination moment! 

I got my life and continued on my way. But my eyes were still watching her... I got back into my groove and I glanced back to look once again. And this time, the beautiful butterfly finally was able to spread her wings. And hunny, she was beautiful!! 

Today's challenge is to spread your wings. The things of yesterday are there for a reason. Yes it hurt, yes we cried, yes we wanted to give up but you know what? It wasn't time to give up. You have to go through to appreciate the good. Today, appreciate the good. Open your arms and embrace all that's headed your way because when you least expect it, it's going to happen. In life, most things start off ugly. We have to pull back the layers to find the beauty. Today, find Your Beauty.. 

Signed,

My wings are Healed, let me Soar

He Picked ME~

Sidenote: This piece is just me getting in touch with the writer in me.. Not necessarily how I'm feeling today BUT it is bits and pieces of my life over the years... I hope that you can relate to it in some way and understand that no matter the circumstance(even for my male readers) He picked you 2~

I once read that, when you let out the fear, upsets, highlights and lows of the day, it helps you to sleep better. I don't know accurate that statement is but here goes...

Today wasn't a good day. I felt like crying more than I smiled and sometimes just to hold it all together I had to take moments just to let it all out.

They say LOVE is blind but how do you overlook the LOVE you see daily that treats you as if you don't exist?

Water is free they say, Whelp if you have to charge me 25cent  to pour it into a cup, I'll let that cup pass from me...

You want to get ahead, but the cards seem to keep dealing you "Uno" draw 4's and Skips....

My turn has been skipped again, the call went unanswered and here I am left like a drying leaf waiting too to be blown in the wind AGAIN...

Please pick me, pick me... No!

The grass looks greener on the other side but once I jumped the fence to get a glimpse and maybe take a roll in it, there were patches of brown where it hasn't  been watered.... Gone untended...

My soul, my soul is weary...
I just want to feel like Jesus is listening but my mind keeps saying,
"Girl, he Ain't thinking about you"..
So, i keep searching in hopes that Jesus will see me
But YET I keep hearing my own voice saying
Please pick me~

But what I've failed to realize is that I was picked way before my parents thought of me.
I was picked way before the hurts, misunderstandings, lies and pains..
He picked me~
Little ole me,
The girl that was so misunderstood that even I was afraid to spread my OWN wings and HE gave them to me.
The little girl, who wanted a nose job so bad I fantasized about being called cute.

Pick Me, Pick me..
Love me like there's no tomorrow,
Hold me close to your heart to keep me from falling.
Respect me as I respect you,
Understand me when I'm not even making any sense.
Listen to my dreams,
Understand my journey.
Don't try to change me
BUT
Enhance what I've already been called to do.
Understand there can be no REAL us, until You become true to YOU...

He chose Me for this journey..
I opened my wings, that HE gave me and I began to fly.

So on today,
Although I cried just a little,
my frown was replaced with a smile.
although, I'm questioning where I am in life today,
I know new horizons and opportunities will await me upon opening my eyes 2morrow..
Tomorrow is so close, so near, I smell it
Nobody is holding me back but me and these fears...

I'm going to close my eyes and look for me..
Look for that Woman
 HE has created me to be..
She's there,
Waiting to be embraced,
and you know, the most FASCINATING part about being Me is....
HE picked ME~