There's Always a Reason....

I.
Am.
Alive.

I.
AM.
FREE.


There's always a reason for being. Sometimes it just takes a little living and encounters with life to help you appreciate your call and why you're placed where you are and come across the people you do.

As always, I say to myself, " Expect each day to be different than yesterday and no matter how tired you are SMILE at the clients".  Running a Nanny/Sitter Service is rewarding but it's also pulls at the cords of my heart with some of the families I meet. I treat Each family with respect and the highest level of professionalism. However, as I get to know each family and their situation( if there is one), I tend to look at them in a different light.


I've been contemplating hiring a part-time assistant. Some days are full days and some days are laid back and relaxing. I see the benefits of meeting great families because they quickly refer someone else. In the last 2 months, KISS has picked up 3 new families, with 2 newborns ( possibly) arriving early next year.
The home of our Future KISS site is under construction, so we are in the waiting period. Space is tight but knowing the kids are safe and the parents are happy, I've become okay with the sacrificing of my home.


2 weeks ago, I received an emergency call on my business line. I didn't answer it because it was Sunday, my last sit had left for the evening and I wanted to relax with my little people before we began to prepare for the School/Work Week. After I did not answer, I soon received a text to my personal phone. Upon reading the text, I realized who the family was and I quickly responded. I called back, I could hear the need and seriousness in the Mom's voice. In less than 20 mins, she was at my doorstep filling out KISS paperwork for her daughter and granddaughter to start the following day.

I digress, for the last 3 weeks, Faithfully every morning I'm on the MonFri-JUMPStart prayer& declaration call for Business Owners. Not knowing my participation was releasing blessings for me, I started sharing my experience with other people and they have joined( continue reading, you'll soon see the importance)...

My new client hugged me and said, "Ms.Neka you just don't understand what this means to me. Thank-You for seeing us this late and we will see you tomorrow." She left, and I continued in my Mommy mode with my little people.

That Monday, I woke up at my regular time excited about the JUMPStart call. The declaration for the day 12/2 was FAVOR... See, although this parent called yesterday she was actually scheduled to start KISS services in January of 2014. But, the week before another parent submitted a letter of discharge because her family will be relocating. I'm losing 1 but GOD saw fit and because HIS Favor covers me, I picked up 2 new clients!!!

Later that evening, when "Mom" ( as I address most clients) came to pick up her girls, we were able to talk. She was then able to openly talk to me about the urgency of their services starting earlier than scheduled. I just listened, what broke my heart most was when she shared how she gained custody of her grand-daughter. Her parents are both in jail serving 2 life sentences with 20 years on top of the life sentences. This little chocolate girl is 5 years old and will see her parents for the rest of her life in jail. I tried to wrap my head around not being here for my children and it hurt to bad. My kids are my life, everything I do I do for them. Although I exist as a Woman outside of Motherhood, they consume so much of my time. I sacrifice my weekends for girlchild and her activities, I wrestle with boychild because the Mister is traveling for work ( and to be available for the twins), I spend Saturdays doing cool activities with them, our Sundays are spent worshiping together. They are a big part of who and what I AM...

I'm easily triggered to cry and once "Mom's" eyes began to water I connected with her and an AHA moment took place. AHA, the Grace & Favor that sits upon my life is there to share with others, especially children. And although somedays are tiresome for me and I think to give it all up ( for about 1/2 of a second), I'm quickly reminded that, "There's Always a Reason". When we take ourselves and our needs out of the equation, we can then clearly see the bigger picture!!

As I finish up this blog, I Embrace all that is for Me & My Family. I embrace our story. It's unique and OURS... and although it may not be playing out how I would like, God has it in the order that's right for us to be a testimony to someone else....

"There's ALWAYS a Reason"

Take Care,
NekaT.

I Spy with my little Eye....

Eyes Speak a Language too.... 

Have you ever looked into a set of eyes and saw a person' soul?
Have you looked and felt their pain?
Their joy?
Have you understood what they were saying before they could speak?

Eyes are beautiful, for each set is unique.
Their color, shape, fullness and sparkle.
They see the world thru their eyes and determine a heartfelt interpretation.

What are your eyes saying too and about You?
This morning as I looked into the mirror, my eyes looked at me and saw
Strength
Love
Peace.

My soul is free because if in nobody else's eyes... I know God sees me!

See and understand, I do NOT come to bring harm, I want to bring and share Love
And to help others experience something so Devine.

Oh MY beautiful eyes, I Thank You for seeing ME when I couldn't see ME!
You saw behind my hurts, looked thru my fears,
And helped me to find my future self and bring her to light.

What's a vision if it's only blurred?
What's a voice if it cannot be heard?

My eyes.....
 You see this Woman who once was a Young girl....
A Young girl who once had a dream
And a dream that is now no longer deterred because for once
I'm seeing ME....

I look with anticipation,
I look with excitement.
As I look to the hills it's become clear...

All eyes are on ME
And I must
finish Strong.....

Signed,
 I see you Girl

I knew it would come....

Let's fight for Marissa Alexander

I knew the words would come, it was just a matter of when.  I'd been sitting on edge like the rest of America, just waiting. 10pm, Saturday night the world heard these words " Not guilty". George Zimmerman had been found Not Guilty.

I sat there and said, "Wow".. I mean, I didn't expect him to get 1st degree murder but I did expect at least manslaughter.  Only a coward would take the life of an unarmed teenager. If you really thought your life were in danger and you were told not to pursue him, then why didn't you just sit your happy tail still until a real Authorative Figure arrived? There's no sense in going over what I feel should've happened because America has spoken. 6 Mothers, who could've been on the other side of the law have agreed that he was not guilty. I cannot even began to fathom the feelings bottled up inside of Sybrina Fulton.

Normally, my daughter and I sit and talk about issues that we face daily. I remember the 1st time my organization, Women Who Network and my business KISS did our first Senior Citizen Holiday give back, she told me, " Mommy, I feel really good giving to the old people".  It made my heart smile because this is what it's all about.

When this verdict was read, Im quite sure she had questions but in my absence her Father did what I could not have done. Took her to a rally. And although I'm quite sure she didn't get on the mic and speak, I'm sure just being there, sparked feelings inside of her that we will surely discuss when she
returns from summer vacation.

There was a march in Dorchester Ma and my baby girl and her family were out there. So many times, we forget that we need to involve the little people. They have voices, they have emotions and they want to react. We have to remember as adults, they feed off the atmosphere we are apart of. If they see violence, they will react violently. But, if they see people coming together in a calm way peacefully, they will want to get involved. I salute my daughter and her big sister for getting out and standing for the youth in their families. The fire has been started and if we feed this fire with positive reactions, we could possibly be raising future policy changers/makers.

While this verdict has caused an uproar in the Black Community, it cannot just stop with Trayvon. We did NOT fail him as a people because his parents were raising him the right way. He was a great student, he was active and attended his local church. And although the media tried to display him as somewhat of a vigilantly youth, who smoked weed and used his middle finger; The system failed him. Thee system failed to protect him and the system failed to properly sentence the man that took his life. It's a good thing to protest in his honor but it's now time to fight for Marissa Alexander. He is no longer with us( which saddens us ALL) but in his honor lets fight for Marissa. The system has failed her but it's not the end.

I want to do something, I want to make my voice heard( aha, hence why I blog and write). Marissa, a Mother and wife who suffered at the hands of the man she honored to love and respect til death due they part. On more than one occasion he beat her, while pregnant. And 9 days after giving birth he
came to attack her again and she stood her ground and protected herself and her child. Unfortunately, 
for WHATever reason, she was dealt a card that even my WoRST enemy( if I had 1) does not 
deserve. A sentence of 20 years... What kind of foolishness?  I mean, she is in Florida and after the   
verdict GZimmerman received, we need to fight and unite to get her case the proper media coverage 
it deserves. GZ walks in freedom and Marissa deserves the same. She deserves to be with her child and she deserves to exercise her right to bare arms( she was licensed) and protect herself.

Here's our chance Black America..... What are we going to do?

Signed,
I Will make a Difference