The Strength of a Woman

I'm tired. I mean tired but when you're a Single Mom, business Owner, work outside the home and still have to find time to live just a little; you find that there's not enough time in a day. 

Today was a day used for lots of thinking, some tears and time with God. I'm learning to not only Pray but to just talk to Him to because he's always listening. 

My truth is::: I carry a lot stress. While I've learned to cover it up, sometimes I just have to get it off my chest. My biggest stress as a single mother is equally giving my time to my daughter and my son. 

Another issue I'm carrying well and hiding is this whole single life. It. Makes. Me. Sick.. 

It's easy for people in a relationship to say it's not all that it's cracked up to be but to an outsider it's everything. I believe in my heart that there are still a few things I must learn in this season and though it's hard, I'm trusting the process. 

Parenting::: oh it's hard. I love my babies to no end but sometimes, after I've been their ear all day, I need an ear too. I spent a good 2 years beating myself up because I have 2 children by 2 different men( it's a cycle that I pray will not repeat with my daughter and son. The buck stopped with me. If I have anymore children, HE will be my husband). I cried for a good year and then it registered, God did not put me in this situation to fail, I've had to learn it, believe it and take  the lesson and share it. 

As I walked( met my step goal tonight, 8500 steps), God reminded be, " Be still

And wait on me". I yelled a little, cried a lot and by the end of my 2 miles, I was at peace. 

I have various playlists that I listen to while walking. Tonight's playlist was everything my heart needed. "They that wait on the Lord, shall renew their strength"... "Go ahead and spread your wings"... Because, "You're Everything to me, Everything...."

My Lovies, tonight as we prepare to rest: Believe with everything in you that God has you. He hasn't left & he won't.  Just when you feel that you can't make it, he's already working it out. Rest well in knowing, he's he's protecting us. 

It's okay to cry, just know that when you're done, wipe your tears put your big girl panties on and keep it moving. It won't be this way forever. I hope my truths inspire you to accept your truths... 

Signed, 

Cheneka's Simple Truths