Some days.... Just NO words...

 Yesterday, whew yesterday. I do NOT want to relive it at all. Spent a great deal of the am, at Northside Medical Center for Pediatrics Wellness. My Mooda Pie's eye looked like she had gone through the ringer with Mike Tyson and Muhammed Ali at the same time. She has a fear of Dr's every since she was 2 and she stuffed a crayon up her nose. We took her into the ER, they sedated her with some meds that didn't help, put her in a baby restraint jacket and removed the crayon. And in the process, she scratched the ER nurse right across the face( hangs head).

When she woke on Monday, I did notice a little of swollen"NESS" but assumed it was just due to the weather, her sleeping wrong.. You know, as moms we rationalize everything. However, about 3.5 hours into cheer camp, she calls me from her phone crying. I go and pick her up and I notice her eye is a bit more swollen as is her face from crying. We get home, I give her Benadryl and she's out like a light.

We proceed with the remainder of our evening and her eye is looking a bit more shut. I tell her, "Moo, I'm calling your Dr 1st thing tomorrow to let her know what's going on". Wait, mommy she says, if I have to go in, will I get a shot? Girl, that's the least of our worries right now. Let's find out what's wrong with you.

After it was all said and done, I ended up taking her to the Dr's office. Her prognosis, 1 of two things: A Sty or a nerve in her eye became inflamed. Whatever the deal, I didn't like it. However, a Mother's job is never complete.

It later dawned on me that I'm just flat out tired. I make time for everyone but I'm losing more of ME in the process. I'm a MOM 25hours8days a week( ya'll know it feels like we do extra), then I'm Team KISS from 6;15am til 10:30pm( most nights), I take care of home then I crash about midnight to wake up and do it all again. I'm NOT a 1 Woman show but some days, it truly feels like it. I just need that break, I need to find that extra wind of air and start all over. It's not a good thing to feel like you're shutting down... so, in order to avoid it, I'm going to find an extra hour devoted just to me. Even if I'm just reading a book, meditating or sitting ALONE in SOLIDTUDE I'm doing it...

When we are no good to ourselves, we're of no good to anyone else... I need to keep going, this is not the time to get tired... But some days, there are just no words...

OAN: Watching these senior citizens in their workout class on the News and they look amazing... Whoomp, whoomp... I need to work out harder too... Guess I'll get my miles in real quick this am!!