My 1st Love...

I haven't blogged in what seems like forever. Between business, home life and mommyhood I barely have time for myself.

However, I do know that I can't stay away from my 1st love and that's to WRITE.. When nobody truly understood me and what I was feeling or going thru, my pen became my best friend.

My 1st love got me thru the loss of my grandmother, the loss of my 1st born, bad relationships, my uncertainty while developing my OWN relationship with GOD on MY terms, family issues, my journey to find me, parenting and the list goes on and on.

My 1st love was there during my numerous hand surgeries too. I have a reoccurring condition called ganglion cyst. Knots intertwine with my veins in my left hand. I have more surgeries than a little bit.

My 2008 surgery was the worst. BUT I used it as an eye opener. My best friend said it best, "Cheneka, you are a writer. The devil is going to try and discourage you, but you WRITE". Thank-you Moneka Jones, I hold those words to my heart and when I feel like the pain in my pinky finger is unbearable, I write.

I write to encourage, I write to inspire and I write to change.

I Encourage, because I've now figured out that in order to encourage others, start by encouraging yourself. Tell YOURSELF, you matter. Tell YOURSELF you look good and trust me, you'll be amazed at how you began to view and appreciate you.

I Inspire, because somebody inspired me. There's strength, courage and power when you learn to inspire others. However, this task can only be achieved after you've learned to inspire yourself. Develop your dReam, write it down, open your eyes and make it HAPPEN.

I write to change because Change 1st started in me. I wasn't living to my fullest potential and I knew it. Through it all, God remained constant and he birthed something inside of me that yearned for more. It was like I was talking to myself but from my heart.. When I think of my journey, I think of this line from The Help..
You is KIND
You is SMART
You is IMPORTANT

I had to believe this for myself. I couldn't wait to hear it from family and friends, I had to condition my thinking and believe it for myself.

I haven't completed the journey because keep going down different roads. I've found the roads of
An UNBREAKABLE relationship with GOD,self help, business owner, mommy 2nd time around, appreciation, networking, positive energy and TRUE LOVE!

When you stop chasing what does not belong to you and what does NOT want you, your prize is humbly there awaiting you to claim it.

So, to my 1st love: Thank you for consoling me during sleepless nights, thank-you for helping me to find my voice, thank-you for running out but never running away, Thank-you!!

People come and go BUT true words that only I can express come from my 1st love and that's my Heart, PAPER and PEN~