My Ship has come In...

The smallest things make me happy!! When you've suffered enough hurt, you tend to appreciate the small thing.. I'm reminded of this book, Mondays with Mr.Morton( I think that's it). It's a man's personal account of meeting with an older man every Monday.

I'm not meeting with the person, but I talk to her EVERY week. Some would look down upon this conversation and person because for so long, she's been catergorized as a trouble maker. Our weekly conversations have been going on for the last 3 months. She brings joy to my life and for once, I'm feeling like I matter. You ever heard the saying, " the last shall be first"? Well, I'm finally understanding it.

Our conversations will start something like this, "Hey, how are you and the little people".. What's new, what's going on, you guys okay? You know I love you.." And THAT makes me smile!

As human 1st, I tend to hurt and ask why alot? A broken heart, an argument, bad convrsations.. They all tend to do something to our mental psyche.
As a Christain, I check myself because I know I'm human and flesh makes mistakes, I always want to be in a place of forgiveness and moving forward. God has done entirely to much for me to be miserable.
As a woman, I check myself because I want to always been seen as a rolemodel for my daughter, female cousins nieces and my mentees. I want my image to be one my son look to and smile. I would'nt want his wife to be just like me, but embody some of my characteristics..

Well, my ship has come in. It took for me to leave the comfortable, enter into my own wilderness to find my way. I'm happy, I'm content and I'm growing. Probably not in the direction some people would have for me but following the plans GOD has laid for me.. I'm leading the line: MY LINE and it feels good!!!

In the words of my Pastor.." I got my joy back, I got my Peace backack, I got my SWAG back( how you might ask?) I TOOK IT BACK...