I WAS her..Afraid...

I breathed to be excepted,
Wanted to know and understand what it meant to be loved unconditionally..

See, I was her..
Born to a teenage mother and father..
Born out of wedlock and my birth seemed to have caused more hurt than good...

I was her,
Never quite understood what it meant to have both parents because my home was broken..

I was her,
Did alot of stupid things to gain acceptance..

As I grew older, I learned that true exceptance comes from God..
I knew without a doubt that my Mother's love was unconditional...
She loved me thru my rights, wrongs, screw ups and successes...
She loved me when I went in the bathroom and cut my hair
And she supported me thru the loss of my 1st child...

But, that just didn't seem enough..
So, I became involved with a guy at a very young age..
And because we were young and both products of "Dysfunctional Families", in time we outgrew each other.. And that was okay

My growth,
Didnt come in the form of thinking I was better than anyone,
It came in the form of time to stand on my own and experience more than what Boston had to offer...

Ever felt like what you have growing inside your belly, or head is to big for some ppl in your circle to grasp?

Well, that was me..
I was ready to fly, ready to soar and take off...
But, I still had to hop before I could fly..

My wings took form in September of 2009...
My heart was ready, my soul was released and I knew my Ship had finally sailed in..
It's one thing to say I'm leaving, but its a pure satisfaction you achieve when you finally make the move..

I had to loose some things in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..
I had to shed some tears and cut some strings in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..
I had to say some hard goodbyes and leave some relationships unresolved in order to prepare for this trip,
and I did..

I WAS her!!!
Afraid of what tomorrow and the unknown held until I had the strength and courage to spread my wings and FLY...

I hold no regrets, I hold no grudges, I hold no animosity...
I exuberate LOVE, PEACE and CHANGE..

I know what it is to dReam, and watch dReams become a reality..
I WAS her,
looking out of my own soul while others dictated my moves...

I WAS her,
Afraid to be me~

I now LOVE and APPRECIATE who and what I've become..
LIfe has its up and downs,
Surprises and Disappointments,
BUT WE control what we allow to affect and move us...

Today,
I'm moved my the love of GOD and just being me..
Because,
I WAS her~
Afraid...