HaPPineSS and Love.....

" I seek, searching for someone to make me happy someone to complete me..Someone to love me like I've never been loved before...And then I wake up!! I must LOVE and be HAPPY with me in order for someone else to love me!!"

There are alot of thing in the world that we have attributed happiness with. A new job,a new car, a new home, birth of a child, having money, vacations, etc.... But all of these thing will fade way. At the moment they are newly presented to us, we walk around with a big grin, but once they start to depreciate and lose its luster and shine we are on to the next big thing to once again make us smile.


I've learned that in order for ME to find my complete happy place and love unconditionally, I have to first forgive people who have hurt me. I have to learn to heal myself. Its a long process and some of us would rather move onto the next thing or we'd rather continue seeking other's to give us what we lack, vs going after complete Happiness within. We cannot make others happy if we are not happy. We cannot love others if we cannot love ourselves.. Life will throw us all types of curve balls and sometimes we have to fall into our lowest state to learn to stand again and appreciate ourselves. I've been at very low and weak moments and because I'd become so accustomed to faking how and what I was really feeling, I slowly lost my happiness and love for me.

I found myself basing my outcome on who loved me and who was happy for me. I based it on, who had the nicest things to say to be and the ones I was able to make happy, all the while losing me. It wasn't until God started to open my eyes and touch me in a special way that I realized I was going about it all the wrong ways.. He had to remind me, "Look up Cheneka, I'm looking down on you showering you with my peace, love and understanding..You my child just look up, position your hands in the open stance and receive!!" Once I started to lean on God, his understanding and power, The need for acceptance and appreciation from others vanished! I was now on the road to controlling my own happiness!

We are only as strong or as weak we allow our minds and hearts to be. My mind is powerful and my Heart is loving, with those being on my side I'm destined to walk into my own Happiness!!! We have to stop giving others the power to control how and what we feel about ourselves!!

Today, I speak happiness and love to all who are seeking it and reading my blog!! My simplest joys and pleasures have become picking up my daughter, hugging her tight and telling her I love her. My happiest pleasures are being able to walk freely!! My love I give it freely from a place that has been hurt far to many times to count..But, because I'm a conquer and I stand redeemed I'm able to love my own worst Enemy!!

Happiness and love, find yours today and appreciate it!!

Blessings to All!