I MUST walk alone

" last nite I cried, not because I was sad, hurt or upset... I cried because I no longer feel alone...In my weakest hour he has there and sustained me and for that I'm Grateful"


Today my journey began,
I woke up and knew it was time to go.
I didn't have the time to call my mom, I grabbed my daughter and our most personal objects and we left.
See, this journey isn't about anyone but me... In order for me to grow and make it..
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

I cannot tell you where I'm going because I have no time for your words of discouragement
Because YOU do not understand, REFRAIN from hindering me..
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

This journey has been well thought out and scenarios played out in my head,
However, leaving the familiar is going to be the hardest part..
But, in order to grow, in order to flourish,
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

My journey isn't because I'm running or hiding,
My journey isn't because I'm scared,
My journey is because it's time for me to grow!
But in order to grow, in order to flourish...
I must shake off the who's and what's that are holding me back..
I MUST walk alone

My Destiny is calling,
On its way to be fulfilled,
But in order for me to accept it and be at Peace...
I MUST walk alone!!

Be Inspired
Be Encouraged!

Striving, Dreaming, Reaching!!! BAM!!

"I'm just me..Here where I am, doing what I do, living how I should live, Loving who I am and Grateful for where I'm going...This is not the finale...Just the Introduction"


It's hard to sit somewhere and try to feel and be complacent when you know, there's so much more for you to contribute. Sometimes, I just sit and think back over my life and I am filled with tears and so many emotions.. God has been so good to me!! Today was first fruit Sunday at church.. I planned to give something totally different but I couldn't do it today, but by the 1st Sunday in May, my church will have my full pledge!!

God told me, you may not give your full amount, but honor me with the 1st tithe off your new job.. I did JUST that, gave my regular offering and gave the portion I had of my first fruit offering, and I had my daughter to give her 1st fruit offering as well. See, I'm teaching her that thru our giving to God and others he keeps us blessed. During my transition from Boston to Connecticut to my current home in Atlanta, God promised me, If I keep him 1st in all of my giving, keep him 1st in my prayers, keep him 1st in EVERY little thing he blesses me with, My daughter and I will never go without and EVERYTHING I attempt will be successful.

See, I'm striving with a dream... I already see it happening, BUT I just have to continue to reach.. Just because we see things turning around in our favor on our behalf we cannot stop right there. This is just a mere taste of what we're going to experience when we are totally aligned with God and his will for our life!

I'm not settling for my today because my tomorrows are going to unlock the door to EVERYTHING I've ever dreamed of. If each of us could just catch hold of a dream, "Our Dream and NOT somebody else's, give it to God and watch it grow.. Oh My, the world would be filled with all types of successful people! We're all not to be business owners, we have some ppl who are going to be successful at running the business for the owner, we have some ppl who are going to be successful at keeping the books, we have some ppl who are goingt o be successful and just keeping the atmosphere positive.. We are each commanded and mandated with a different call and purpose for the Lord!!

Because my dream isn't yours and yours isn't mine, It DOES Not mean that one is more important than the other. When we look with our natural eye, we become intimidated and we feel that its unattainable and we cannot reach for it.. We have to look with our super natural EYE and REACH until we cannot reach anymore. and befor you know it, we're going to grab onto one of those sparkling stars and its going to be nothing but Uphill from there.

My challenge is to each and EVERY person that's going to read this blog, to Dream, Reach, Strive and Excel!!
We become our own worst enenmy when we allow ppl who cannot see what we see to crush our DREAM!!! I refuse to allow a DKW to stop my dream and block my harvest.. What's for me is for me and if you be nice, I will share the Wealth!!

Be Encouraged,
Be Inspired to Dream!!

Conditioning Our Thoughts, produce BETTER Results!!

" I sing because I'm Hsppy, I sing because I'm Free..My thoughts are my own, and I'm accountable for my actions. And because of that I Control my HappineSS.. I Think and Feel I'm Happy so I will ALWAYS be Happy"!!!


The other nite I was reminded, the way I wake up is how my daughter will wake up when I go into her room. It's true, the signals we give off are 100 percent what we get in return. This am, I worked in the infant room because we were short staffed. I went into the room with high spirits and because of that, I did not want to leave out. The babies were so loving and kind. Full of smiles, I had no other choice but to give that same energy to them as well.

In our own lives, we are responsible for our own happiness. We cannot allow people, objects, money or jobs to fulfill our happiness. We have to control it because if we don't we will always be looking for the next 'thing" to fill the void. Some people will never truly understand what it is to be happy because they are continuously looking for it, when in actuality it starts within us.

Have you ever woke up in a nasty mod and your whole entire day went down the drain? Even down to your food, nothing was right... Then, have you ever woke up on a Happy high and you stayed that way the entire day? There it is, prime Example you controlled your Happiness..

Even in our relationships, there will be days where we will look to our partner to complete us, to make us happy or to even understand... The Happiness must first be within us so that our partner can do his/her job. In or relationships, our individuality adds luster to the relationship... We are no longer I,I, I but we are together. We were chosen by our partner because there was something in us that lined up with what they were looking for.

We can only control ourselves. And until we learn to control and change ourselves we will always feel the need to change someone else.

Today, I will control my words..therefore producing positive sentences
Today, I will control my thoughts..therefore producing positive actions
Today, I will control my face.. therefore producing a SMILE!!!

Be Inspired
Be Enocoraged!!!

My RIGHT now ISN'T the FINAL outcome...

" Just when you think the sun isn't going to shine, the bills are NOT going to get paid, you'll NEVER find a job or you're mate will never get it together.... A small remind comes your way and says...This is NOT the Final Outcome"


Just the other day as I walked to work with my ipod on, I was thinking. My thoughts were this.." God, why do you love me so much? Why do you continue to look out for me and provide for m daughter and I"? You've shown up and shown out on my behalf so much that I'm forever grateful.I have visions and this time next year I will not be where I am, and you know why? My "right now" isn't my final destiny. My right now is helping to pave the way for me to walk/run/ or even skip right into it.

Have you ever wondered WHY things are just not going your way? Have you ever thought about wanting to do better, but spoke the words it's NOT going to happen out of your Mouth? We have to learn and understand, what we put out into the atmosphere is what we will reap. If you put out all negative, negative will come to you. If you speak life into dead dormant situations, these situations will have no other choice but to change.

We each have the power within to make our dreams into realities. If we condition ourselves EVERYDAY with the thought that this WILL be the BEST day ever, we will have no other choice but to believe it. BUT if we constantly wake up, mulling around and mopping, then you guessed it, It will be a day from Hell.

Let's STOP allowing our RIGHT now to control the FINAL outcome... I work from home, helping non profits and serious individuals find money to start up businesses but I was becoming cramped and needed to get out of the house. I first started in m daughter's school helping with the reading program, BUT I wanted more. So, there's a learning center at the end of my street and we pass it quite frequently. I began to condition my thinking with, " I'm going to work there". I'm now working there.. To some it may sound real superficial, BUT to me( although it's mainly a way to network and give back to the little people..I LOVE KIDS), I put into the atmosphere what I wanted, I petitioned it before God and he made it available. I do not plan on being there for a long while because My DREAM is bigger than that, However I'm going to thank God for NOT allowing my RIGHT now( being in the house) to be my FINAL outcome..

What do you want to change? Are you speaking positive words into the atmosphere? Are you conditioning your thinking..And speaking those things that are NOT as though they ARE??

Be Encouraged
Be Inspired, Dream!!

A Woman with a Dream....

" I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth, BUT yet when I'm dressed you'd never know.... I take pride in smelling good, looking nice, and speaking like I know what I'm talking about...I'm a WOMAN..."


Its not easy being a Minority Woman( and I'm NOT just addressing sisters of color)... To me, all women are of the minority. We are NOT expected to hold down Corporate jobs, raise children, run a household and sometimes take up the slack for Fathers, BUT we do it and do it Oh so Gracefully..

I remember watching my mother struggle to take care of my brothers and I. It wasn't always easy but she did the best with what she had and made it happen. One of my happiest days was attending her graduation with her receiving a degree in Computer Automation. To myself, I was like, "My mom did it". After that, she climbed up in the world and was able to get a better job all because she took that step.

Its easy to get stuck in a runt and not want to pursue anything else. We deal with so much garbage on a day to day basis. I remember when I was back home, living in Boston. I had so many dreams and aspirations, BUT because I had a wonderful career doing what I do best and bringing home a nice paycheck every week, I kind of but it on the back burner. Then, one day I woke up and felt this isn't it anymore. Although I was getting up going to work every morning, the fire I had to perform at my best was slowly but surely slipping away and my heart was telling me to pursue my dreams. My best friend once told me, "Nek you're an awesome writer and you need to pursue it and go for it"... It never really dawned on me that maybe this was a true gift from God. It took me to lose it all in order to Fully allow God to lead and direct me...

I'm now taking my gift and using it to the best of my ability. I write, mentor and help organizations because this is the GIFT God has given me and I refuse to let it go to waste.

Women, we have to really learn to follow our hearts and not the dream of a man or anything else that is not truly ours. We can make it in this world because we have the strength and power within. I'm learning that, I'm my daughter's 1st teacher. She will learn the importance of taking care of herself through me.. I cannot and will not let her down. We have to press through even when we cannot see it with our own eyes, we have to press through even when we're left to raise children alone and be their sole provider. We have to press through even when we don't want to read and finally obtain that degree we've been working so hard to obtain.

Today, my sisters I'm saluting each of you who are making it happen.. And I also encourage the ones of you who need that push.. The Power and Courage is there, REACH in Grab it and Soar!!!

Be Inspired, Be the difference.. DREAM!!!

dReams..... ...

" At nite, when you close your eyes think happy thoughts and happy dreams will entertain you while you count sheep" CTH...

I never fully understood what it meant to dream. When I was younger, I would associate my dreams with how I wanted my future to look, who I would marry, where I would live the kind of work I would do. See, I always wanted to be a lawyer. My mom always told me I have a way with words( which now, I finally understand what she meant). Though, my path would lead down a different road, I am a lawyer. I help people find solutions and I enjoy defending children, because sometimes we have to be their voice in this cold world.

Sometimes, our dreams do not come full circle because we do not have enough Faith and Hope. As I sat with my nieces having breakfast today, we talked about a number of things..What touched me was that one of them said, " I did not have money for my trip( they are in Atl on Spring Break) until the day before we left". I looked at her and could understand what she meant.

During my transition, I quit my job in order to start preparing myself to leave. I knew when I wanted to leave BUT my Faith wasn't strong enough then. I had to close my eyes a few more weeks and dream happy thoughts to prepare myself to leave! In order to see it, we have to want it bad enough that we can taste it, right on the tip of our tongue. In life, we have to want to do better and mean it from our heart in order for it to happen. As in our Christian walk, we have to want the more and more of God in order to be sustained and given the strength to fight the enemy.

My transition taught me that I AM MY DREAM!!! In order for our dreams to come into fruition, we have to always make sure we are in the right place. It doesn't necessarily have to be the right time, just the right place fully positioned.

I knew God was positioning my life, I just didn't fully understand what he was positioning it for. But, because I choose to live for him and cast everything that would cause a hinderance to the side, he has placed a job, a church and people in my path for his cause and purpose.. All the while showing me that, If I dream, he's going to make it happen..

...I dreamed to relocate, TODAY I live in Georgia
... I dreamed to work in my field again, TODAY I have a job giving back
... I dreamed to be loved for me, TODAY he loves me for ALL of me
... I dreamed for a beautiful family, TODAY marks one day m daughter has been 6 yrs old
... I dreamed to have sisters I could talk too, TODAY I have many

.....Dreams, what are yours?? Are you making yours happen??

Be Encouraged, Be Inspired and Be Yourself!!!

My trues Reflection

" Our words and actions Go along way. They give the purest description of our internal person by displaying them on the external. What are your words and actions saying"?

Just the other day my 5 year old daughter said to me,"mommy you don't give me enough attention". She will jump up and down and even do silly things just so that I will look at her. And once I'm looking, she continues with what she was doing before that moment she felt I was focused on something else. I know what a majority of her problem is, she's an only child and she has already voiced wanting a sibling( which I'm totally game for...eehhmmm, clearing my throat).... Her actions and words sometimes are a result of how she is feeling. And sometimes as adults, our actions and words are a result of how we are feeling. Have you ever had an argument and someone walked up and caught an off the hook response from you because of how you're feeling on the inside? You then looked at the receiver's face an in that instant felt extremely apologetic?

I have been there and done that before. Last nite, I was talking to my sistergirl(LC) and we both agreed that just because we are feeling a certain way on the inside, it shouldn't be a reflection of that on the outside. In all things, we should be able to separate our inner issues and put on a happy face. Have you ever encountered someone and they were just in a runt? You just wanted to yell to them, get it together it's not that bad?? Or, you've seen someone so extremely happy and you thought, please nothing in the world is all that good? I'm smiling because that's ME!!! As I transitioned into my Destiny, I realized my actions and thoughts will block my blessings if I don't began to change. It took a while, but I had to come to a Peace and Understanding in my own Heart that God does not want his children to live below the standards he has set before us. He wants our actions and words to reflect a peaceful place. I NEVER want to be in a place where all I think is negative because eventually that will be all I produce. I want my words to be of encouragement. I've learned that if you can encourage yourself you can encourage others. The whole point is to let our lights so shine that Men may see our Good works, and those good works are to glorify the Father.

Today, allow your frown to turn upside down into a smile... Let a negative word or thought go. Is it worth hurting someone in the moment, only to feel awful about it later?
I will allow my words and actions to give off the Peace of God that lives within my heart. In my saddest moment I will display a smile because someone in this world has it worse than I do( which by the way, I'm GOOD so any better than this...WOW!!!!)
What will you be saying and doing today??

Be Blessed and ?Please Have a Nice/Blessed Day

NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING is perfect about me BUT HIS LOVE Heals me....

"I fall off the"WALK" sometimes. I get discouraged, I cry and I get Mad. Sometimes I don't want to be bothered and I can catch an attitude.An unchoice word may slip, BUT in the End knowing HE doesn't judge me and HE LOVES me Unconditionally makes my Heart smile"

Some days I look at my body and I say why can't I have perfect abs, why can't my legs look like Kelly Ripa's and why are all of these freckles appearing out of no where?? I'm telling you, my body has so many imperfections, as does mt life. But GOD, He loves me through it all. Some days, I just sit and do a re-cap of my life. I sit and think about all the awful decisions I've made, the awful thoughts and actions I've had and performed and through it ALL, HE loves me. He doesn't judge me and HE knows EVERYTHING.. He knows about the time I attempted to steal a bottle of very fine grape juice from the corner store( and the owner noticed it, walked me home to my momma and she went to town on my butt), he even knows about the times( about 3 yrs long) I poured water in my baby bro's bed and he got a whipped in the am for it!!
But, I wasn't judged. Although I've been forgiven for those things, those were choices and actions that I'm NOT proud of. But, because he loves me from the inside out, I've been redeemed, forgiven, loved all over again and offered a second chance!

God's LOVE is amazing, it heals me in places that a human can't. When my heart is broken into tiny small pieces, he picks them up and repairs my heart, NEW! When I have questions, need answers and humans just cannot comprehend what I'm feeling, he soathes me and quiets the storm. When I want to throw in the towel and run from problems, in him I find the strength and courage to wake up and go at it all over again.

People will judge you and talk about you in the same breath( I'm Guilty of it)BUT, its in that moment I'm reminded.... "Nothing is Perfect about you Cheneka, it is through my Love, Grace and Forgiveness that you are forgiven and given a new chance at joining me in Heaven."

Remember, we live to change and grow daily and if you work on YOU and YOU alone, then you are one step closer to God!!

Be Blessed!

It's Not a Game, This is MY LIFE.....

" I was born and CREATED to exemplify Love, Peace, Happiness and God's Grace.... So, if you have a misunderstanding and quite can't comprehend my mission, just watch me..I'm Growing and Changing EVERYDAY"


So many times the trial of life would have us to forget that we were born to make and take deposits for/from world, so that when the right time came around we could make withdrawls( and even receieve more deposits).. Don't get it? Check this out..

By the age of 5, most of us were in kindergarten. We were taught the basic fundamentals that would help us to make it to the next grade. And we would continue to receive these Educational deposits up until 12th grade. If and when we decided to further our education, we signed up to receive 2-4 more years of deposits( but these deposits came with a sacrifice)

At the end, we received our degrees, therefore putting us into a place where we now can make a difference. We will now use all of those deposits to to help us perform at our job.. During our time on the job, our clients and co-workers will at times require a "withdrawl"... This is when, all that was given to you will be able to go back out and help some one else...

If we teach, all of those lessons on verbs,nouns, adjectives, sentence structure and etc will come to our remembrance as we teach the new generation!

We can look at our spiritual lives the exact same way...God constantly makes deposits into our lives with numbers of blessings. Whether they be financial, knowledge, peace or even understanding, HE gives it to us. and he expects that at times he can withdraw from us and bless others. To be Blessings are endless. We are blessed so that we can go and bless others. I'm constantly reminded a tight hand will never be blessed because they are not allowing anything to enter or exit!!

This is our life, and we can control the good and bad energies we put into the atmosphere. I'm a firm believer if you feed in Positive, you will receive positive. Let's been in a place where we are exemplifying God's Grace, Love, Peace and Happiness allowing our deposits and withdrawls to help enhance our lives and someone else's!!

Today and EVERYDAY I'm pumped! I'm ready to help someone else because what they withdraw out of me, will be deposited back into my life ten fold!!

Be Encouraged!!

Not your Average CHICK..Hmmmph!

" Are you Aggressive, Assertive or Passive about Matters of the Heart? Do you go after what You want, Do you quietly look for the strength to speak up, or do you just allow things to happen because you're Still looking for your voice? Well, me.... I'm NOT your Average Chick"

Growing up I was told, "Girl, your mouth is going to get you in trouble". At a young age, I just knew I wasn't going to take things sitting down. I had a voice and I just couldn't allow it to be silenced by anyone.. I had to deal with some bad situations and I agree some I put myself into( YES, not to many of us will take the blame for our short comings, BUT me..I'm NOT your Average Chick). I had to overcome hurt, lies, disappointments and Change in order to realize, there is NOTHING average about me. Have you ever watched a tide come in? Each tide is unique. It comes in with a force and sometimes it clears the entire beach because people are running for cover.. But once, the tides goes back out, it leaves different imprints on the sand, even bringing in fish, removing messages off the sand, bringing in bottled messages and etc. No tide can be considered average because they come in a different speeds.

That's how we can look at our lives. Most of our problems are washed away and never return because we have an advocate we can go too. Some places in our lives, we have to take them back with a Force( whether it be a bad relationship, claiming a job or reclaiming a lost family member)because Greater is He who lives in us than he who lives in the world. And sometimes, we just have to speak imparting Peace, therefore leaving an imprint!! Nothing about any of those are AVERAGE!!! It takes a person with Spunk,Attitude, Perserverence and LOVE to go after what's right! We are given Victory and unlimited blessings when we go above and beyond the line of duty for the LOVE of Christ and others!!

Some people will be content with being Average..Me, Hmmmph I'm NOT your Average Chick..I was born to Conquer my Battles, I was Born to serve God and People, I was born to LOVE from a place where HURT once spent the nite.. It was during those nites average was being replaced!! I was becoming stronger each nite, with each tear( Thnx Mary J)..
My helmet of LOVE, Hope and Peace is on... And this helmet will protect me from the ones who will try to tear me or anyone associated with me down!!
Not your AVERAGE Chick and Because of that I'm RUNNING for the Gold..Get with me or Eat my DUST!!!

Be Encouraged!!

I Have a GIG Yall, do You???

"When most people hear the word GIG, they thing of a little job... While its good to have a GIG, My GIG is Greater than that.. My GIG, is always there, Not just for a short time BUT a lifetime...GIG..... A God who IS GREAT"

I have a number of GIGS I'm currently working on and they all are very dear to my heart.. While, working on these GIGS, I thought of God and how marvelous he is. How he's been providing these GIGS for me, therefore making him greater to me!! During the lowest moments, moments of despair, hurt, misunderstandings, my GIG makes himself known to me. Just when I think I'm alone and nobody cares, in those still moments he reminds me, you are where you are because of me. You're not alone my child and I have not forgotten about you.. I'm making you into who I would have you to be. I've taken you from all that was familiar to take you into a place to learn to depend on me.. I'm taking everything you are and making you greater..

My GIG has taken me to places I could've never gotten to on my own.. Who would've EVER thought I'd muster up the courage and strength to leave my hometown and take my daughter to a whole new state and start over? The Power of a GIG!!!

Who would've Ever thought A free course and some classes could help me walk into my destiny and along the way help other's dReams become realities as well??? The Power of a GIG!!


Do you have a GIG??? what has he and is he doing to make you GREATER??? A GIG, will never leave you nor forsake you, A GIG will take you to places where EVERY door has been shut!! A GIG will LOVE you unconditionally when you have no one else, A GIG will be your personal Savior!!!

I LOVE my GIG and if you gave him a chance, He'll do the same and more for you...

Be Encouraged!

HaPPineSS and Love.....

" I seek, searching for someone to make me happy someone to complete me..Someone to love me like I've never been loved before...And then I wake up!! I must LOVE and be HAPPY with me in order for someone else to love me!!"

There are alot of thing in the world that we have attributed happiness with. A new job,a new car, a new home, birth of a child, having money, vacations, etc.... But all of these thing will fade way. At the moment they are newly presented to us, we walk around with a big grin, but once they start to depreciate and lose its luster and shine we are on to the next big thing to once again make us smile.


I've learned that in order for ME to find my complete happy place and love unconditionally, I have to first forgive people who have hurt me. I have to learn to heal myself. Its a long process and some of us would rather move onto the next thing or we'd rather continue seeking other's to give us what we lack, vs going after complete Happiness within. We cannot make others happy if we are not happy. We cannot love others if we cannot love ourselves.. Life will throw us all types of curve balls and sometimes we have to fall into our lowest state to learn to stand again and appreciate ourselves. I've been at very low and weak moments and because I'd become so accustomed to faking how and what I was really feeling, I slowly lost my happiness and love for me.

I found myself basing my outcome on who loved me and who was happy for me. I based it on, who had the nicest things to say to be and the ones I was able to make happy, all the while losing me. It wasn't until God started to open my eyes and touch me in a special way that I realized I was going about it all the wrong ways.. He had to remind me, "Look up Cheneka, I'm looking down on you showering you with my peace, love and understanding..You my child just look up, position your hands in the open stance and receive!!" Once I started to lean on God, his understanding and power, The need for acceptance and appreciation from others vanished! I was now on the road to controlling my own happiness!

We are only as strong or as weak we allow our minds and hearts to be. My mind is powerful and my Heart is loving, with those being on my side I'm destined to walk into my own Happiness!!! We have to stop giving others the power to control how and what we feel about ourselves!!

Today, I speak happiness and love to all who are seeking it and reading my blog!! My simplest joys and pleasures have become picking up my daughter, hugging her tight and telling her I love her. My happiest pleasures are being able to walk freely!! My love I give it freely from a place that has been hurt far to many times to count..But, because I'm a conquer and I stand redeemed I'm able to love my own worst Enemy!!

Happiness and love, find yours today and appreciate it!!

Blessings to All!

Failure....Here's your Second Chance..GO!!!!

"To Start over again doesn't mean you've Failed, it just means the first go round was a test. Now, you have your wings and you are ready to SOAR, On your Mark, Get Set SOAR"

In life, we think because we have "failed" there is no second chance for redemption. It's not that we have failed, it just means the first go round, we were not ready. It's not that we've totally failed, it just means there were a few valleys we had to fall into, a few mountains we had to climb, a few mistakes we had to make along the way BEFORE we we're able to fully proclaim We've Made it, and For God we'll live or for God we'll die.

I've learned along my walk that, God NEVER leaves us out to fully dry and crinkle up, BUT he leaves us out to Air all the things that are not like him. He leaves us out to purge and trust me sometimes purging is totally disgusting..But after you wipe it away, its gone and you're just like new...

Our futures become brighter and we look at those "failures" as lessons learned. Every struggle or hard place we get ourselves into isn't always our doings, I firmly believe it's God's way of positioning us for where he would have us to be. So many times I sat and just cried and during those rough times is when I was hardest on myself because I felt "Failure" had completely sunk in. It was during those times that I finally mustered the courage to wipe those tears away and dust myself off! That is when God whispered to me, "Cheneka, you're NOT Failing, you are RIGHT where I would have you to Be". It's in those moments where we have nothing that we are able to appreciate all we have... Sounds crazy right? Well, its not.. During my period of "Failure"( Transition) I went from living in my own beautiful place to sharing a room with my daughter. Was it something I wanted to do, NO... But did I appreciate having a place over our heads, YES!!! And although I knew my parents wouldn't leave us out to dry, I was extremely thankful for their act of kindness to their oldest child. Their generosity, love, support and care got me through.
We have to learn that revisiting an old place( in my case living at home with mom and old man), only prepares us to appreciate and welcome where God is leading and taking us. I know have a BEAUTIFUL place, fully furnished from top to bottom and EVERYTHING in here is MINES and paid for!!

Although I had to go to another state to appreciate and walk into my calling, you don't have too! Start revisiting places where you've been hurt, start revisiting people that have hurt you.. It is in these moments, your presumed "Failures" will slowly turn into successes and you'll be able to walk with your head up, into the next phase of your life. We can become our own worst enemies, BUT today DeclaRe, My healing starts and these failures were not Failures they were TESTS preparing me for my Genesis!!

Be Encouraged!

If God had a Blackberry, Would he have your Messenger Pin??

.....Life is only limited when we do NOT set our Goals High Enough....

One of the first things I grab for EVERY morning is my blackberry. Its like an addiction. I check all of my messages, send out hellos and even check facebook all before I step foot out of the bed!! Although I say a quick morning prayer, I know I could use that 15-30mins I spend on my BB with God, but because I think my life is more important than it is, I have my time mixed up.

I have about 20 ppl in my messenger contacts, and we are at our own liberty to select our current availability. You can choose to be available, busy, Away, unavailable or even on the phone.

I wonder, if my God had a blackberry would I be of enough importance to have his blackberry pin? Would he mind me messaging him when I'm down, would he mind me messaging him when I'm happiest, would he mind me messaging him when my SO and I have a disagreement and I need to vent? What would he have his availability set too? Would he be available to my every msg or would he sometimes be Unavailable? Would he pick and choose which ones of us he wanted to talk to for the day or would he give us all the same undivided attention?

What situations in life are we NOT giving our fullest attention too? Is it a person, place or thing that we are totally avoiding? Though we are not God, there are some obstacles placed in front of us to help us to mature and grow into the person we are supposed to be. And total avoidance only prolongs us reaching our fullest potential and walking into our destiny!!

I'm not a perfect person, but I do know I reverence God and each day, I change so that I can see his face at the gate. Each day, the old Neka fades. The hardened shell that I once had up protecting this flower is slowly withering away and a ROSE is blooming.

Although it may sound incorrect, I'm going to give God the time I give my Blackberry! My blackberry isn't keeping food on my table and my bills paid( although some of the emails are potentially job related), my blackberry isn't keeping me sane during my weakest moments: God is!! However, I do know if God did have a blackberry and I had his pin, I'd blow him up all day because that's just how much I love him!!

Today, let's make God as important as our phone devices are and watch, in time he's going to do it!!

Yes, if God hada blackberry we'd all have his Pin!!

Some Roads We travel ALONE....

I can count on my hands the times I've felt alone... The times I felt I had nobody in my corner and felt like even God had abandoned me. It was in those low places that not only did I find my voice, but realized that God was making and positioning me for greatness.

The strength and perseverance obtained during our low points is what will help to shape and mold us into the person God would have us to be for the kingdom. But, in order to work in the Kingdom, God has to get you to a place where your life is no longer yours and you are totally ready to surrender...

We all have a destiny and a path that we must take. The good thing about it, our paths and destiny will differ from person to person. I've been called to write and motivate, you may have been called to be a Brick layer( Pray for the Kingdom), our jobs are so totally different but yet the same. It takes some alone time to truly understand what your call is! Preachers were not called over night, they were groomed..

When we travel alone, the journey will mean a lot more. There will be no room to point the finger nor blame the next person because its just you and God. It's not God's plan that we fail, his plan is for us to succeed and live a life that's pleasing to him. So many people lose focus because they are clouding their lives with other people's issues rather than worrying about their own. It is in those moments that God decides, he's going to have to take what's familiar away from us to get us to where he wants us to be. I went from having a really good paying job, a lot of friends and security to it all being snatched away. I really didn't understand what was happening at first, I just thought I was slowly but surely turning into a failure because I was absolutely positively engrossed in my own life. I thought I was what's happening and that good ole God would never let me fail... BUT oh to the contrary!

God started to strip me of familiar places and people to send me on this Road"Less" traveled! 2 yrs later, I stand stronger and more confident. My confidence just isn't in who I am, but Who God has ordained me too be. I had to leave familiar territory and travel to a place where nobody really knew me in order to be in a place to receive God's many blessings. God's peace and anointing surpasses all understanding. His anointing will allow every place I walk, everything I touch and every person I encounter to be blessed!! His love and call is a gift, its MY choice what I do with his gift.. I've chosen to share his ??gift through writing.. My road has been bumpy true enough and I've had more alone moments that you could ever imagine, BUT I have a peace in my Heart!!!

Travelling alone produce wonderful benefits..What are your journeys saying about you?

Why I am Who I Am!

" Life is like a plant, with proper care a nourishment it grows into a BEAUTIFUL sight"

I'm the daughter of a Beautiful woman and a Stern father. I grew up in a single parent home and did not really develop a relationship with my father until we relocated back to Massachusetts and even then it was strained from time to time. Growing up in a single parent home I learned at an early age, this was not the life I want for my children( once I became a parent)... My 3 brothers were knuckle heads and from time to time they gave my mom and I HELL. But, I love them unconditionally. Since we were latchkey children, after school we spent a lot of time together. We were members of our local Community Center but I really didn't fit in there and spent a majority of time at home doing homework, on the phone and getting evening dinner started or even prepared for my mother.

As time progressed and my mom started to date again our family was slowly but surely becoming complete. My mom remarried when I was 19 years old to my step-father whom I affectionately call " Ole Man". At first, it felt super good knowing that we now had a permanent male fixture in our family. But, as time progressed and the reality set in, Mom and my 2 of my 3 brothers would be preparing to relocate to another state. Although I was in college, apart of me wanted my mom and brothers to still be within my reach. Why couldn't Ole Man come to Massachusetts?

I couldn't see it then, but it was at that moment when Mom kissed me on my cheek as I stood in the kitchen ironing my jeans that God was preparing me by removing someone that was familiar and giving me the strength to stand on my own..It would still take sometime(9yrs) for me to realize that the transition was happening. I still had to make a few mistakes and lose a lot more to be able to accept and appreciate the place I currently reside!If I had of tapped into my Faith in God sooner, I'm quite sure it could've saved a lot of extra screw ups and bad decisions I made! But, it was destined for me to travel down the road less traveled for a reason.

I'm a daughter, sister, Mother,Aunt,Cousin and Future Wife. At the time I was conceived, God already knew that my life was going to take this Path, he was just strengthening me along the way. My words were not only going to Inspire me to go harder but help to lift others out of their runts! We all make mistakes in life but knowing that God is going to pick us up and allow tomorrow to be a FRESH start should give EVERYONE motivation to go harder!

I write because, its my ministry...
I care because someone cared for me..
I LOVE because I'm loved by many...
I pray because someone prayed for me...
I Give because I haven't always been able to Give( for selfish reasons)..
and I serve God because I have No other Choice!

All of life's lessons have made me and that's why I am who I am!!!